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by winstonthebish
Sun May 26, 2019 8:19 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Is thinking/saying "I don't care" resistance?
Replies: 9
Views: 685

Re: Is thinking/saying "I don't care" resistance?

Thanks for sharing that video, I enjoyed his talk very much! The way he says to just let everything go, all your ideas, opinions, concepts, everything, is such a great way to really see deeply inside. It's funny doing this, because there really is nothing left when I do this, and then a few seconds ...
by winstonthebish
Mon May 20, 2019 10:53 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Is thinking/saying "I don't care" resistance?
Replies: 9
Views: 685

Re: Is thinking/saying "I don't care" resistance?

Well I don't know. It's kind of like what Alan Watts said in that video you linked to, "trying to get rid of the ego to not suffer anymore." I guess that is what it is. I'm afraid of more pain. Then there is this endless loop of wanting to get rid of the ego and not wanting to get rid of it. I tried...
by winstonthebish
Tue May 14, 2019 1:09 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Is thinking/saying "I don't care" resistance?
Replies: 9
Views: 685

Is thinking/saying "I don't care" resistance?

I have been aware of thoughts/feelings for about 5-6 months now, and can see how easily one negative thought can transform into a chain of more thoughts, which in turn create a lot negative feelings inside my chest/stomach area. The negative "energy" can also show up alone, and when I try to into it...
by winstonthebish
Sun Mar 24, 2019 9:15 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Feeling empty inside
Replies: 1
Views: 289

Feeling empty inside

Lately I've been feeling empty inside. There is this void inside me, mixed with feelings of sadness. I can't really explain it. I try to go into it, stay with it, but it just makes me feel sadder. It just takes me over completely. I don't want to just play some upbeat music, or watch something funny...
by winstonthebish
Wed Mar 06, 2019 12:11 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Feeling empty and sad, will the ego ever die?
Replies: 4
Views: 506

Re: Feeling empty and sad, will the ego ever die?

Oh wow. Yes, she told me she wants to hang out with me and she enjoys my company, and I enjoy being with her. She told me she didn't want to sleep with anyone else, only me, which is good enough for me to build on at least. She also knows I'm not running around with other girls myself. But wow, I re...
by winstonthebish
Tue Mar 05, 2019 6:46 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Feeling empty and sad, will the ego ever die?
Replies: 4
Views: 506

Re: Feeling empty and sad, will the ego ever die?

Thank you for your reply, WW. I try to just let her be as she is. She said at first she didn't want a relationship, and then a day after said that we are basically almost in an "official" relationship. I thought at first that would make me happy, but I didn't really feel anything other than confusio...
by winstonthebish
Mon Mar 04, 2019 10:06 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Feeling empty and sad, will the ego ever die?
Replies: 4
Views: 506

Feeling empty and sad, will the ego ever die?

I started reading Power of Now in October after I stopped having contact with this girl I dated. I stopped because I thought she had slept with some other guy, even though we weren't exclusive. I thought, and found out later she just made out with him (she might have done it, doesn't matter, just po...