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by seekerjon
Sat Dec 15, 2007 6:32 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Interesting
Replies: 1
Views: 788

Interesting

Very interesting day so far, over the monehs and months that have passed I have been watching my feelings all those crappy feelings I had, I constantly watched them pass, feeling like I will never feel the light. Well today all the anxiety provoking thoughts and stuff are still there, but my feeling...
by seekerjon
Wed Dec 12, 2007 6:57 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Rough week
Replies: 4
Views: 985

Re: Rough week

Yes D'Ray you are so right I say the same thing to myself why have these negative thoughts or emotions, why complain worry and so on ,because it just puts us through pain. If we know its unnecessary to do this and we still do it why it's just insane. The problem I see is that we want to avoid these ...
by seekerjon
Wed Dec 12, 2007 5:53 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Rough week
Replies: 4
Views: 985

Rough week

This week so far has been rough at times almost unbearable my painbody is active almost always ever since I fell into my depression 3 years ago its been active all day long there really is no relief. Sometimes I wonder if what I am doing is helping or not, I mean it seems the more I go into these fe...
by seekerjon
Wed Dec 12, 2007 1:53 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Concentration
Replies: 2
Views: 798

Re: Concentration

Thanks for your reply, you are right I notice the more I watch the painbody and mine tens to be very strong the more I notice I feel a certain level of peace in the storm that is going on in my head. Some stuff I have come to accept and when the pain comes I welcome it because it helps me stay prese...
by seekerjon
Tue Dec 11, 2007 2:58 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Concentration
Replies: 2
Views: 798

Concentration

Ok I have a question its driving me nuts, I felt like I was doing the right thing by going fully into my emotions I pay close attention to them I concentrate fully on them, I feel like pockets of energy on my face and stuff. I concentrate so much on them that my mind cannot make a story out of them,...
by seekerjon
Tue Dec 11, 2007 4:24 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: What role does shedding tears have in the Now?
Replies: 27
Views: 4397

Re: What role does shedding tears have in the Now?

I have these moments and they occur maybe once a day sometimes every couple of days, that i have a worry or feel some sadness and I feel my whole face get like this pressure I can feel it behind my eyes and everything, I feel like I am just going to break down and cry and I go right into this feelin...
by seekerjon
Sat Dec 08, 2007 7:18 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: A tiny bit of clarity
Replies: 46
Views: 6556

A tiny bit of clarity

Today I had a tiny bit of clarity I understand now how we feed our pain-body and how easy it is to become identified with it because the ego is so clever. I realize now especially for me and other people who tend to worry a lot, that by analyzing our worries and trying to decide in our head if somet...
by seekerjon
Thu Dec 06, 2007 5:10 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Going against the Ego
Replies: 1
Views: 437

Going against the Ego

I have come to the point in realizing that if you do anything that the ego doesn't want you to do, like feel the pain instead of going against it or running away from it. It helps kill the ego a little bit because I know in my situations I am a guy and work with many "macho" guys so if you show the ...
by seekerjon
Wed Dec 05, 2007 7:21 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Why do we do it?
Replies: 7
Views: 1297

Why do we do it?

Well after a morning of worrying while at work, worrying about if I am doing this whole consicousness thing right or if I am doing it wrong and being with the pain that comes with that thought. After a couple hours the pain finally subsided and felt more calm. I then started thinking why worry? I me...
by seekerjon
Wed Dec 05, 2007 4:55 am
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Finally some understanding
Replies: 2
Views: 872

Finally some understanding

So after months and months and months of practicing to stay present and reading ET's PON over and over again and perusing some f his other books at bookstores. I think I finally understand what he meant when he tells people to "feel their problem." I was at Borders tonight, yes I am a book junkie an...
by seekerjon
Tue Dec 04, 2007 4:47 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Observing thoughts
Replies: 17
Views: 2606

Re: Observing thoughts

Wow thanks for all the great feedback you guys have some great insight. I think I understand this more basically from what I get from reading his book and from you guys is instead of getting attached to a thought bring your attention to the NOW such as body sensations and whatever you are doing at t...
by seekerjon
Mon Dec 03, 2007 10:38 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Observing thoughts
Replies: 17
Views: 2606

Re: Observing thoughts

Tikey, that helped a lot what you said about watching fishes in an aquarium but when a emotion arises your just suppoused to observe it right? In the past I try to change the emotion and fight against it, or ignore it by trying to do something else. So basically just feel the emotions that come with...
by seekerjon
Mon Dec 03, 2007 5:49 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Observing thoughts
Replies: 17
Views: 2606

Re: Observing thoughts

Thanks for your insight kiki I have read many of your posts and you have some great insight. I got the whole idea from labeling my thoughts "thinking" from Buddhism they say when a thought arises say "thinking" and return to your main focus such as sensations or whatever that may be. I know I am hav...
by seekerjon
Sun Dec 02, 2007 1:19 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Observing thoughts
Replies: 17
Views: 2606

Observing thoughts

Ok so I have been following ET's book for I guess the past 7 months or so read his book over and over again and read a lot of Buddhism books my question is how do you guys observe your thoughts. I usually focus my attention throughtout the day on any sensations there are in my body or just feel my f...
by seekerjon
Tue Nov 20, 2007 7:37 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Confused
Replies: 4
Views: 817

Re: Confused

Wow thanks guys for all the insight it does make sense and everyday I do feel a little lighter, it can be tough though sometimes especially when showing emotions in front of people such, as sadness and stuff but I feel a little more confident each day. Attachments are tough to let go.