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by Webwanderer
Tue Aug 14, 2018 7:37 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Self hatred after messing up something sacred to me
Replies: 2
Views: 40

Re: Self hatred after messing up something sacred to me

I have the most tremendous guilt and shame about this. I shoulda put more effort in even if it was impossible to hide the downfall, I shoulda done more. I feel like I violated my spiritual path and have become an evil, bad person. For months my mind was going crazy telling me that I created so much...
by Webwanderer
Wed Jul 18, 2018 2:54 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Focus on one thing or everything?
Replies: 3
Views: 243

Re: Focus on one thing or everything?

Welcome to the forum Pete. As to your question, be present in your focus regardless of what it is. Life is going to require your focus of attention in many ways unique to the circumstances at hand. Information and conditions flow through consciousness. Be present to that flow. When something arises ...
by Webwanderer
Fri Jul 13, 2018 5:23 pm
Forum: Beyond the Physical
Topic: Suicide NDE
Replies: 23
Views: 1363

Re: Suicide NDE

Answering a question with a question, is not answering the question, but deflecting. Not if the question brings understanding to the initial question by enlarging the context. The thing is, can the question be definitively answered at all from the human mind perspective? Or is it just opinion based...
by Webwanderer
Sat Jul 07, 2018 8:36 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: The Pain Body
Replies: 1
Views: 84

Re: The Pain Body

My question for you, my freinds in peace is this: Have you ever felt "worse" (and I mean long-term, a few days or weeks) after becoming very aware of your pain body? I have been actively trying to remain present when I feel those pain body related emotions and mind patterns arise in myself for the ...
by Webwanderer
Fri Jul 06, 2018 1:57 pm
Forum: Beyond the Physical
Topic: Suicide NDE
Replies: 23
Views: 1363

Re: Suicide NDE

I would ask, do you think consciousness cares? Thanks for twisting my head into a pretzel in your post Jen. :? :D To answer your question I would ask, do you care? About anything? If so, where did you get that capacity? Can you express something that is beyond the innate capacity of the Infinite? I...
by Webwanderer
Wed Jul 04, 2018 4:29 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Kill the Ego
Replies: 17
Views: 407

Re: Kill the Ego

Webwanderer wrote: ↑ Wed Jul 04, 2018 2:36 pm In that choice making possibility, our feelings and emotions are primary reflectors and guides in effecting that quality. A little confused here. I've written on this extensively in previous posts. If interested you can search my posts for more informat...
by Webwanderer
Wed Jul 04, 2018 4:08 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: The Paradox of Wanting Nirvana
Replies: 10
Views: 306

Re: The Paradox of Wanting Nirvana

When I observe this it feels like the ego is a projection of the pain body, and I can always feel the pain body, which seems to reside in and emanate from my heart for some reason. It's kind of the other way around. The pain body is an element of the ego. Of course there is far more to ego than jus...
by Webwanderer
Wed Jul 04, 2018 2:36 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Kill the Ego
Replies: 17
Views: 407

Re: Kill the Ego

I'll add my take on Kiki's excellent post. Ego is so ubiquitous in this human experience that it cannot be without purpose. We are born into myriad conditioning environments that are destined to create belief systems about life and self that form the basis for ego. These variations of belief systems...
by Webwanderer
Fri Jun 29, 2018 4:58 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: The Paradox of Wanting Nirvana
Replies: 10
Views: 306

Re: The Paradox of Wanting Nirvana

Thank you for this great post!
Thank you for a great question. :D

WW
by Webwanderer
Fri Jun 29, 2018 4:31 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: The Paradox of Wanting Nirvana
Replies: 10
Views: 306

Re: The Paradox of Wanting Nirvana

I've now been grappling with this paradox. It's hard to put into words but I think I already know that Presence is the answer. If I look forward to nirvana I will never achieve it, but if I remain present then it might come to me, but I mustn't want it otherwise it will never come. Any additional t...
by Webwanderer
Wed Jun 27, 2018 2:11 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Help with sometimes getting stuck in ocd-like thought loops
Replies: 10
Views: 299

Re: Help with sometimes getting stuck in ocd-like thought loops

I don't know if this could be considered a normal stumbling block for some people learning the practice or if only someone with obsessive disorder like me can get stuck in this ridiculous mind trap ha. Nah. Most all of us have our own stumbling blocks. What I find effective is to just be okay with ...
by Webwanderer
Sat Jun 23, 2018 4:04 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Who is to blame?
Replies: 2
Views: 103

Re: Who is to blame?

That's an interesting exploration. The way I see it is that the pain one feels is an element that contributes to the ego's perspective. It's part of the identification that actually forms as the ego. That painful influence can be so dominant as to create a criminal mind that feels justified by virtu...
by Webwanderer
Wed Jun 20, 2018 2:27 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Practical tips on Practicing Presence
Replies: 12
Views: 437

Re: Practical tips on Practicing Presence

But my problem is I cannot "Listen to the silence that underlies all things". I simply cannot. If you cannot listen 'to' the silence, then listen 'in' silence. That is listen, or more broadly perceive, in a thought free context. In other words, be aware of what is... without engagement. When though...
by Webwanderer
Wed Jun 20, 2018 12:11 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Presence vs. Avoidance
Replies: 2
Views: 108

Re: Presence vs. Avoidance

Welcome to the forum Wonderer. I write on this concern quite a bit and I encourage you to read some of my previous posts addressing this topic. My worry is that what I'm doing is avoiding my own thoughts, feelings, patterns, triggers, etc, rather than becoming a more present and conscious person. Wh...
by Webwanderer
Mon Jun 18, 2018 10:26 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Effort and struggle in awakening - The mind up to it's old tricks?
Replies: 1
Views: 91

Re: Effort and struggle in awakening - The mind up to it's old tricks?

A big source of suffering for me has been my mind telling me that I need to struggle, need to fight, need to put in constant effort to awaken. It's deeper than that, it's tied in with my identity, the mind tells me that unless I struggle and fight and put in constant effort then I'm not worthy. Is ...