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by Midnight
Wed May 11, 2016 8:38 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Depersonalisation / Derealisation
Replies: 9
Views: 1656

Re: Depersonalisation / Derealisation

Bump

I still haven't recovered from this. nearly 6 years and counting.
by Midnight
Mon Jan 04, 2016 2:32 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Depersonalisation / Derealisation
Replies: 9
Views: 1656

Re: Depersonalisation / Derealisation

Hi. I used to post here many moons ago, back in 2010-2012 mostly. In 2010 I was doing self-inquiry, and ended up, for some reason (which I still don't know), having an intense panic attack, followed by another several days after. After that panic attack took place I slipped into a constant state of...
by Midnight
Fri Jan 01, 2016 3:40 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Depersonalisation / Derealisation
Replies: 9
Views: 1656

Depersonalisation / Derealisation

Hi. I used to post here many moons ago, back in 2010-2012 mostly. In 2010 I was doing self-inquiry, and ended up, for some reason (which I still don't know), having an intense panic attack, followed by another several days after. After that panic attack took place I slipped into a constant state of ...
by Midnight
Tue Sep 25, 2012 2:26 am
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Back from the rabbithole and "I" am shocked.
Replies: 51
Views: 8393

Re: Back from the rabbithole and "I" am shocked.

the same thing happened to me except i didn't find any unity consciousness or any such thing. All i found was a void and a lack of myself. Is the tremendous fear that I feel an indication that I should stop or keep going? this was 2 years ago btw. Hi! You must be the midnight from the dpdr forum!! ...
by Midnight
Fri Aug 24, 2012 6:43 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Back from the rabbithole and "I" am shocked.
Replies: 51
Views: 8393

Re: Back from the rabbithole and "I" am shocked.

the same thing happened to me except i didn't find any unity consciousness or any such thing. All i found was a void and a lack of myself. Is the tremendous fear that I feel an indication that I should stop or keep going? this was 2 years ago btw.
by Midnight
Mon Aug 13, 2012 2:30 am
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: After being in hell for long time
Replies: 10
Views: 2424

Re: After being in hell for long time

hey imago.

I've been experiencing dissociation for a couple of years now. 'Hell' is a very good way of putting it ;)

If you ever want a chat, don't hesitate to PM me. I know how dark it can feel, like you are losing your mind - you can come through.
by Midnight
Sat Jun 30, 2012 11:41 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: so strange
Replies: 52
Views: 4633

Re: so strange

That sounds fantastic. I'm not at that stage yet. I've been in a state of total disillusionment for over a year. I never could have imagined this in my entire life. Thats the thing, throughout the spiritual search everyones looking for happiness. I think most people would agree with that statement. ...
by Midnight
Thu Jun 28, 2012 11:39 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Terrible Night
Replies: 19
Views: 4498

Re: Terrible Night

I know humanity is pointless. You do seem to have a lot of negativity. My experience is that the light is there at the end of the tunnel. At some point you let go, open your heart fully to whatever comes. From what I have seen - deliverance does arrive. And then perhaps humanity makes more sense. E...
by Midnight
Wed Jun 27, 2012 11:38 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: so strange
Replies: 52
Views: 4633

Re: so strange

The best description of the Divine that I came across was Ah! This ! Yeah sure mate, You know all the right words to say. Doubt you have that much experience though. I live by these words, they are not empty words , they resonate with me wholeheartedly. ... now, if you excuse me , I have a craving ...
by Midnight
Wed Jun 27, 2012 11:36 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Terrible Night
Replies: 19
Views: 4498

Re: Terrible Night

I am fully aware that my perspective that humanity is insane is only a perspective, the same could be said for Eckhart! I believe it whole heartedly. I don't need much more evidence than looking around the places in which I've lived my whole life. There is noone home! Everyones puffed up with self i...
by Midnight
Wed Jun 27, 2012 7:42 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Terrible Night
Replies: 19
Views: 4498

Re: Terrible Night

Dude, there's nothing wrong with you. Humanity is a disease upon the planet. We serve no purpose. End of discussion. There's nothing wrong with trying to be a moral person, kudos to you if you have the courage to try.
by Midnight
Wed Jun 27, 2012 7:38 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: so strange
Replies: 52
Views: 4633

Re: so strange

Ralph wrote:The best description of the Divine that I came across was Ah! This !
Yeah sure mate,
You know all the right words to say. Doubt you have that much experience though.
by Midnight
Wed Jun 27, 2012 7:36 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: so strange
Replies: 52
Views: 4633

Re: so strange

The spiritual search is the ultimate form of nihilism. It's dressed up as a search for a true 'self' when there is no such thing. Anyone who claims there is has no experience. Everyone is seeking for some ultimate experience, but it's not this. Even Adyashanti explains this in 'The End of Your World...
by Midnight
Sun Jun 17, 2012 10:30 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: so strange
Replies: 52
Views: 4633

Re: so strange

No Ashley, just no. Lol. You really have no idea.

Anyway i was just giving my 2 cents not looking for advice.
by Midnight
Sat Jun 16, 2012 10:51 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: so strange
Replies: 52
Views: 4633

Re: so strange

The source of awareness does indeed seem to be absolute annihilation or death. I can say that with a degree of confidence, as I've gone deeply into meditation to the point where there was no self-concept and no awareness of the outside world.... or of anything really. I recoiled in fear, the most po...