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by Zazen
Wed Mar 29, 2017 8:58 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: What am I experiencing?
Replies: 0
Views: 811

What am I experiencing?

Here's what usually happens: I take a practice, and practice it for a long period of time(being present, all is one etc) Then after a while I decide to just let it go, because I either cannot maintain it enough or whatever. When I let go, life feels SO intensely close and I just do whatever I want. ...
by Zazen
Thu Sep 29, 2016 7:56 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Separate from beauty
Replies: 3
Views: 584

Re: Separate from beauty

I've heard teachers talk of an awakening of emptiness followed by an awakening of love, where you see yourself in everything. I assume your experience of realizing the self is recent? Love will probably reveal itself at some point. My experience is very similar to yours, but I still have layers of i...
by Zazen
Mon Sep 26, 2016 9:51 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Possible awakening experience
Replies: 3
Views: 509

Re: Possible awakening experience

Is your "light of awareness" somewhere behind your eyes? Or is it everything?
by Zazen
Fri Jun 24, 2016 11:14 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: The Ego and Fear of Death
Replies: 2
Views: 549

Re: The Ego and Fear of Death

Yes, it's true, we hide from death. But take your idea a little further. We close our eyes to a lot of things. We even hide from life. Also- don't generalize, look at what YOU hide from. How many times you find yourself in the middle of a conversation and if you just relax in the moment, you find yo...
by Zazen
Mon Jun 20, 2016 11:27 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Relationship brings out of me a incredibly strong pain body
Replies: 0
Views: 562

Relationship brings out of me a incredibly strong pain body

So I'm 22 and I'm in my first relationship with a much older woman for about 8 months. When I met her, I was meeting a lot of woman and I felt a very strong energetic pull towards her, and she did towards me. In fact, half of our first meeting was spent in a present silence and it felt good. For the...
by Zazen
Sat Sep 07, 2013 10:54 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Forcing presence while longing unconscious ? Life cycles.
Replies: 8
Views: 1154

Re: Forcing presence while longing unconscious ? Life cycles

Rideforever and treasurehunt, you seem to have the wrong impression that I separate spiritual practice from daily life. Probably this is the impression I've created along my post. However it is not true. I integrate it as much as possible. If you surrender then you integrate everything together. If ...
by Zazen
Fri Sep 06, 2013 9:28 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Forcing presence while longing unconscious ? Life cycles.
Replies: 8
Views: 1154

Forcing presence while longing unconscious ? Life cycles.

Do you know the feeling when you abstain from certain food because of a diet and then, when that period is over, there is like a deep longing to just put your hands on that tasty food once more ? Or you abstain from sex for a few weeks and then your whole body just needs it, you just crave for it ? ...
by Zazen
Tue Aug 13, 2013 1:52 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Enormous distress from not being able to get a girlfriend
Replies: 45
Views: 7509

Re: Enormous distress from not being able to get a girlfrien

Actually, approaching strangers is a great way do destroy(a part of) your ego. A primary advice which many of those coaches give is to ruin your "self image" at the beginning of the night, and you will flow into state. Something kind of clicks with Eckharts teaching, doesn't it ? whenever I use dire...
by Zazen
Fri Dec 14, 2012 10:01 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Started formal meditation and it's very hard
Replies: 7
Views: 856

Re: Started formal meditation and it's very hard

Is your activity used as a way to create stability - is it a support of some kind ... and when you take it away it falls apart ? You could say it is. I only give presence "half-attention", the other half is on the action. So I don't really "care" about presence, I just do my action with 100% attent...
by Zazen
Fri Dec 14, 2012 12:20 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Started formal meditation and it's very hard
Replies: 7
Views: 856

Re: Started formal meditation and it's very hard

Peaks and falls is an overall view of my "spiritual progress" throughout this whole time, meaning there are periods when I invite more awareness into my life, and periods when I don't have gaps and spaces between my actions because I am distracted by external stimulus. When I say I am conscious in e...
by Zazen
Thu Dec 13, 2012 9:59 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Started formal meditation and it's very hard
Replies: 7
Views: 856

Started formal meditation and it's very hard

I've practiced being in the moment for about 2 years, I've had my peak moments and downfalls. In spite of my nickname, I've never done any formal meditation. I never found it "natural". A lot of changes came in my life, and recently I became too outwardly oriented. So I joined a Zen group and starte...
by Zazen
Sun Jul 29, 2012 11:12 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Nothing works (seemingly)
Replies: 35
Views: 5096

Re: Nothing works (seemingly)

I admit that I still hold onto mental concepts for comfort...and that I come back for answers, when it really is found within... I admit that i have taken it very seriously at times... though being yourself isn't a serious business at all... I think the the other day, a painbody activated my painbo...
by Zazen
Sat Jul 28, 2012 11:08 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Nothing works (seemingly)
Replies: 35
Views: 5096

Re: Nothing works (seemingly)

Rideforever: I still don't have the answer... I often get annoyed with myself and others (I really don't like getting annoyed at others...)... Why ? Sometimes other people are a*holes. Are you sure nothing works ? I'm not sure... But it seems like anger comes and goes... I am just afraid of letting...
by Zazen
Sat Jul 28, 2012 10:38 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: I can't get over the past
Replies: 3
Views: 618

Re: I can't get over the past

I can't get over past pain and i'm finding it hard to let go. I have repetitive thought that has been in my head for a long time and it won't go. If i can get over it i have a lot of potential to do things but my mind still thinks about things that died ages ago and are completely over. Everything ...
by Zazen
Sun Jun 17, 2012 8:10 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Please Help - Roommates & Sleep
Replies: 7
Views: 1326

Re: Please Help - Roommates & Sleep

Without writing a novel here... I'm 23 years old and I recently moved out of my parents house. I did this because my dad is a REAL hassle to live with plus my parents are getting a divorce and I'm the only child. I didn't want to live in a hostile environment for 6 months while they wait for the di...