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by muthu
Fri Jul 13, 2012 12:22 am
Forum: Relationships
Topic: awareness of painbody while dealing with family
Replies: 7
Views: 1345

Re: awareness of painbody while dealing with family

Do the work. You talk of feeling lonely : ok, observe this in meditation ... so as you sit; firstly feel the Now of your present reality anchoring you ... then look at this feeling of loneliness, open yourself to it. Let it pass through you and be transmuted. It can take time but this works eventua...
by muthu
Fri Jul 13, 2012 12:18 am
Forum: Relationships
Topic: awareness of painbody while dealing with family
Replies: 7
Views: 1345

Re: awareness of painbody while dealing with family

I know I have made some assumptions here--I apologize if I've over-stepped
Not at all Karminder, I hear what you are saying. I am glad you are helping me see things the way they are.
by muthu
Thu Jul 12, 2012 7:09 pm
Forum: Relationships
Topic: awareness of painbody while dealing with family
Replies: 7
Views: 1345

Re: awareness of painbody while dealing with family

"Why do I feel so violated ?" I can't know what the reason is, but there is a common pattern that may apply to you Pattern: It comes down to me feeling I will be rejected by them (abandoned) if I do not do what they want. Fear of Rejection, on my part. My inner loneliness. My idea that since I do n...
by muthu
Thu Jul 12, 2012 6:52 pm
Forum: Relationships
Topic: awareness of painbody while dealing with family
Replies: 7
Views: 1345

Re: awareness of painbody while dealing with family

You hit the nail on the head, it is a pattern with me and this family, I was forced into saying things like yes you care deeply for me etc....this family is not my immediate family, it is my mom's sister's children(cousins) and the one that visited me is this cousin's daughter. I am being specific, ...
by muthu
Thu Jul 12, 2012 4:40 pm
Forum: Relationships
Topic: awareness of painbody while dealing with family
Replies: 7
Views: 1345

awareness of painbody while dealing with family

Trying very hard not to allow my pain body to take over....I am not trying to control it but trying to become aware that it could be rising up. Synopsis: Everytime I deal with this particular family of mine I become paranoid and depressed. I stopped talking to them for almost two years while very de...
by muthu
Sat Jun 02, 2012 6:33 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: When you can't accept that you can't accept...
Replies: 35
Views: 5392

Re: When you can't accept that you can't accept...

You ask the question is that normal? That is the thinking mind interpreting that bodily sensation. It's anxiety arising... a fear about is the sensing safe to do. Thank you Ashley, for clarifying my doubt. I was viewing it as my mind releasing negative emotions. I will try it tonite and see how it ...
by muthu
Fri Jun 01, 2012 7:24 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: When you can't accept that you can't accept...
Replies: 35
Views: 5392

Re: When you can't accept that you can't accept...

This is about watching whatever comes up unconditionally without trying to manipulate any of it. Just be easy with the whole thing, and have no expectation. I tried this last night instead of meditating. In meditation I try to focus my attention on my breadth, and just let the thoughts come and go,...
by muthu
Thu May 31, 2012 3:25 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: When you can't accept that you can't accept...
Replies: 35
Views: 5392

Re: When you can't accept that you can't accept...

That's right. People say, "I am angry," or "I am unhappy," and so forth, maintaining a personal viewpoint. Have you investigated yet whether that I/ego is actually real ? What is found when you look for it? I did try to investigate after I saw this post.....I tried it with what my ego/thoughts were...
by muthu
Wed May 30, 2012 7:18 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Is it possible to awaken while on meds
Replies: 13
Views: 1357

Re: Is it possible to awaken while on meds

You will never find awareness as an object, as some sort of thing that can be put under a microscope and examined. Rather than being an object having dimension, awareness can be thought of as the dimensionless light that illuminates objects so they can be seen. I understand this at an intellectual ...
by muthu
Wed May 30, 2012 4:50 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Is it possible to awaken while on meds
Replies: 13
Views: 1357

Re: Is it possible to awaken while on meds

Yup, that's how ego keeps up its appearance. But is this appearance based on an actual entity, or is this appearance based on conditioning within the mind? Somehow you've inculcated the idea that one must "achieve" something in order for one's life to have meaning. Investigate this idea and see if ...
by muthu
Wed May 30, 2012 4:37 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: When you can't accept that you can't accept...
Replies: 35
Views: 5392

Re: When you can't accept that you can't accept...

Kiki I wanna say the ego cannot be found but it can be sensed....it is an energy form, hope I am right. It can be seen in ones behaviour etc. What do you mean by an "energy form", and how can it be seen in one's behaviour? If my understanding is right, anger, irritability, unhappiness, are some of ...
by muthu
Tue May 29, 2012 11:15 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: When you can't accept that you can't accept...
Replies: 35
Views: 5392

Re: When you can't accept that you can't accept...

Kiki I wanna say the ego cannot be found but it can be sensed....it is an energy form, hope I am right. It can be seen in ones behaviour etc.
by muthu
Tue May 29, 2012 11:12 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Is it possible to awaken while on meds
Replies: 13
Views: 1357

Re: Is it possible to awaken while on meds

thank you Yutso for the link.
by muthu
Tue May 29, 2012 6:45 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Is it possible to awaken while on meds
Replies: 13
Views: 1357

Re: Is it possible to awaken while on meds

Dear Alex, I am addressing you this way because of the kindness you are showing me. I thankyou for your post....means alot to me. I work on the awareness part everyday.....although some days I put in more effort than other days. This morning when I had a panic attack initially I gave into it....then...
by muthu
Tue May 29, 2012 2:25 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Is it possible to awaken while on meds
Replies: 13
Views: 1357

Re: Is it possible to awaken while on meds

My resistence is my mind, Jen. My answer being I need the meds to help me function at a physical level....I had no energy and was not able to eat period. My only concern.....is what Tolle said on Oprah, that people on meds will not experience it. I am not complaining, just stating what he said. I te...