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by MForell
Wed Jan 16, 2013 10:21 am
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: THIS IS IT. JUST LOOK AT IT.
Replies: 10
Views: 1684

THIS IS IT. JUST LOOK AT IT.

Everybody here, Im going to write this one more thread to this forum and the seekers in here now, because my process has come to a point where even the thought "i am enlightened" is falling away, so soon theres not much to say about it. And even though i just said it like that, theres no process rea...
by MForell
Tue Jan 08, 2013 8:32 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: From Heaven to Hell. some help please
Replies: 29
Views: 3761

Re: From Heaven to Hell. some help please

I have no idea nick. Its still not stable but ongoing process and i have no control over it. It started as a realization that bacame a radical, personal "revolution". Im not trying to manage to do anything, on the contrary, its hard to resist it.
by MForell
Tue Jan 08, 2013 6:26 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: The death of the seeker.
Replies: 3
Views: 833

Re: The death of the seeker.

Yes runstrails, i understand. It took another kind of exhaustion and expecially surrendering for me too.
by MForell
Tue Jan 08, 2013 11:35 am
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: From Heaven to Hell. some help please
Replies: 29
Views: 3761

Re: From Heaven to Hell. some help please

The "watch the thinker" will take a lot of practice. It's not going to happen in a day, a week , or even a month perhaps. I'm having a hard time being in the "Now". Maybe it is going to be one long journey, or maybe I'll "get it" quicker. But I have set myself a path, and will not look backward. Ev...
by MForell
Tue Jan 08, 2013 9:49 am
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: The death of the seeker.
Replies: 3
Views: 833

The death of the seeker.

The so called "Enlightenment" is not about gaining anything, its about losing everything. When experienced, the whole concept of awakening becomes a big "joke". Not neccecarily a funny one, but confusing and disorientating because of the fact that we are so familiar with the ego and thoughts, we act...
by MForell
Tue Jan 08, 2013 9:29 am
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: From Heaven to Hell. some help please
Replies: 29
Views: 3761

Re: From Heaven to Hell. some help please

I also experienced the "panic" after few days, and the urge to force the old state back. Thats the ego. You are so familiar with it that it actually is the you, you are familiar with. Take it slow and give it time. Since its has happened to you once, it will never be forgotten, what has been seen. W...
by MForell
Tue Jan 08, 2013 8:19 am
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: feeling alone in this
Replies: 5
Views: 1095

Re: feeling alone in this

Hi Kev What helped me about the disorientation is to remember that nothing has really died here, just the illuusion. You were always like this so its natural, you just couldnt see it through the thoughts. Its like for the first time you experience the world as it is, and not the expectations of it. ...
by MForell
Mon Jan 07, 2013 2:04 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Back from the rabbithole and "I" am shocked.
Replies: 51
Views: 6312

Re: Back from the rabbithole and "I" am shocked.

"The joke is happiness is there within you all the time watching the whole drama play out."
by MForell
Mon Dec 24, 2012 7:50 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Back from the rabbithole and "I" am shocked.
Replies: 51
Views: 6312

Re: Back from the rabbithole and "I" am shocked.

Yes because mind can never figure this out. This is outside of mind. Everything happends in this.
As it came to be the most ridicilous explanation about enlightment now seems the most accurate one:
Its the isness of is and the amness of am.
I am.
by MForell
Mon Dec 24, 2012 6:58 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Back from the rabbithole and "I" am shocked.
Replies: 51
Views: 6312

Re: Back from the rabbithole and "I" am shocked.

Self realization brings everything to one absolute. Its like life forced us from the beginning of our birth to create a wrong perception to all things. Because it is needed to survive. Mind develops it. An eye see's everything but itself. Anything that an Eye see's, is not the eye. Anything that Awa...
by MForell
Wed Aug 22, 2012 1:17 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Back from the rabbithole and "I" am shocked.
Replies: 51
Views: 6312

Re: Back from the rabbithole and "I" am shocked.

Thanks Arel :)
Will write more after honemooning with my self.
by MForell
Tue Aug 21, 2012 11:53 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Awake
Replies: 10
Views: 1591

Re: Awake

Today was my byrthday. words cant describe.
by MForell
Tue Aug 21, 2012 11:50 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Back from the rabbithole and "I" am shocked.
Replies: 51
Views: 6312

Re: Back from the rabbithole and "I" am shocked.

Went to the tigers mouth, had to take the hardway and my friend pulled me out <3
Today is my birthday. The real me that ive always been afraid to be. I ran trough the rain laughing from joy.

Love, M.F
by MForell
Tue Aug 14, 2012 10:23 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Back from the rabbithole and "I" am shocked.
Replies: 51
Views: 6312

Re: Back from the rabbithole and "I" am shocked.

Now, after reading other peoples posts over here and trying to figure this out, i see that most people need to try to get there and "practice". Even years. So i quess my experience is somehow more rare because it was effortless and instant. Even though my experience was instant, spontaneous and didn...
by MForell
Tue Aug 14, 2012 5:38 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Back from the rabbithole and "I" am shocked.
Replies: 51
Views: 6312

Re: Back from the rabbithole and "I" am shocked.

Hi Natalie and thanks, I think the experience was so radical, unexpected and instant for me, that i was lost literally. Thats why i think people who get there slower are in a better place to adjust to it? I did feel a kind of intimacy i cant describe. Like it was very INTIMATE thing. But I was it. Y...