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by jtightlips21
Sat Nov 16, 2019 10:55 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Angry about having feelings of Shame
Replies: 1
Views: 195

Angry about having feelings of Shame

I'll get right to the point, but I have some underlying shame, and I am angry that it is there, as I do not believe it should be there or want it there. Part of the frustration is that the shame seems to come from memories of being intentionally wronged if I did not do something they wanted me to do...
by jtightlips21
Wed Nov 06, 2019 12:08 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Is getting sick of dehumanizing ideologies a sign of a spiritual awakening
Replies: 0
Views: 821

Is getting sick of dehumanizing ideologies a sign of a spiritual awakening

I dont know if I really hate dehumanizing ideologies, or just hate any ideologies that are against anything I particularly value, and/or impose something I do not care for. I find that I hate ideologies such as A) authoritarianism where one is expected to give their whole will to another or system, ...
by jtightlips21
Sat Jun 22, 2019 5:02 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Uncertainty with my individuality
Replies: 2
Views: 644

Uncertainty with my individuality

Hopefully this title is not misleading, but I find within myself that when I have this uncertainty with having individuality, I find myself more attached to the ego. I had done some observations, and I have noticed that I hate when people dont "Live and let live" or embrace their individuality. The ...
by jtightlips21
Mon May 13, 2019 2:48 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Is the ego a necessary process of adulthood and maturity
Replies: 7
Views: 1193

Re: Is the ego a necessary process of adulthood and maturity

I have begun to wonder if the ego is used to suppress the painbody
by jtightlips21
Sun Feb 03, 2019 8:25 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: How do I get past emotional dependence on parents
Replies: 0
Views: 1244

How do I get past emotional dependence on parents

First off, I have a good relationship with my parents, and I have functional independence. I still find I care what my parents think, get offended if they disagree with me, and still feel guilt if I do something without them. I know for sure that this is not my parents, and all me. I find myself bot...
by jtightlips21
Wed Dec 26, 2018 7:53 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Difficulty with moral grey area
Replies: 6
Views: 1608

Re: Difficulty with moral grey area

I had an interesting insight on presence. Being present is not about favoring ones current circumstances over past or future ideals. Since all decisions are made in the present, change is present based. All memory and anticipations exists in the present while all concepts of past or present are just...
by jtightlips21
Thu Dec 06, 2018 8:28 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: How can I handle unpleasant emotions
Replies: 3
Views: 849

Re: How can I handle unpleasant emotions

I find that any emotions of helplessness and nihilism are the most difficult. For some reason, I have noticed this attachment to anger, only because it feels empowering and strong. Then I thought back and remembered how there were times where I felt utterly helpless against nihilistic forces, and co...
by jtightlips21
Tue Dec 04, 2018 6:26 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Is the ego a necessary process of adulthood and maturity
Replies: 7
Views: 1193

Is the ego a necessary process of adulthood and maturity

It seems like much we associate with Childhood seems ego transcendent, such as their ability to be in the present, non-duality, wonder, non-judgment and a sense of wholeness. While adulthood is associated with egoic traits of skepticism, judgment, concern for time and a sense of separateness.
by jtightlips21
Thu Nov 29, 2018 2:10 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: How can I handle unpleasant emotions
Replies: 3
Views: 849

How can I handle unpleasant emotions

I find this is what causes overthinking for me. I use thoughts to suppress feelings that I dont really want to be there, and then overanalyze the feelings, or want to blame others or my environment for negative feelings. I find I become resentful towards people over times they had acted in a shaming...
by jtightlips21
Sat Oct 20, 2018 10:07 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: What can I do with my aversion to responsibility?
Replies: 2
Views: 833

Re: What can I do with my aversion to responsibility?

I have found in myself that much of my aversion to responsibility is that I dont like is the idea that responsibility is more important than freedom. In some respects, I have found that people are willing to sacrifice their own freedom for responsibility, intrude on others freedom for the sake of re...
by jtightlips21
Wed Oct 17, 2018 4:35 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: What can I do with my aversion to responsibility?
Replies: 2
Views: 833

What can I do with my aversion to responsibility?

Basically, I feel like responsibility is really a necessary evil. But I feel like I am supposed to think responsibility is so great. Then I noticed that much of the stuff I take offense to, primarily concepts of maturity, overbearing people, unwanted advice or busybodies is that it taunts this contr...
by jtightlips21
Mon Sep 10, 2018 4:14 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Has anyone else experienced empirical sensory overload?
Replies: 0
Views: 1499

Has anyone else experienced empirical sensory overload?

This has been a difficulty I have been experiencing for a while, where I notice way too much content. I have felt like I notice too much sensory data to the point where I notice too many imperfections, and see everything as emptiness. However, I find that it is much more difficult to let go of empir...
by jtightlips21
Mon Aug 20, 2018 1:18 am
Forum: General Eckhart Tolle Discussion
Topic: Senex and Puer Aeternus and Utopian thinking
Replies: 10
Views: 2722

Re: Senex and Puer Aeternus and Utopian thinking

One day ago, I just turned 30, and something is telling me that I am too old for any puer aeternus thinking, and need to submit to the senex thinking. But frankly, I dont really want to, and it seems just not right. I know they say that 30 is the new 20, but I cannot help but think that age is just ...
by jtightlips21
Fri Aug 10, 2018 6:54 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: How can I detach from anger when I hate anxiety/depression
Replies: 14
Views: 2424

Re: How can I detach from anger when I hate anxiety/depressi

I sometimes wonder if anger is really so dignifying or if its just proud. It seems like Anger has an appeal of some form of self empowerment, where one wants to change something that displeases them, and if something cannot be done to at least refuse to be sucked into and accommodate what has happe...
by jtightlips21
Wed Aug 08, 2018 9:53 pm
Forum: General Eckhart Tolle Discussion
Topic: Senex and Puer Aeternus and Utopian thinking
Replies: 10
Views: 2722

Re: Senex and Puer Aeternus and Utopian thinking

I found an interesting video this morning with Jordan Peterson in dialogue with two Orthodox iconographers. What was interesting was how truth was explained as the integration with facts and ideals. What this has to do with the senex and puer aeternus is the way that I have observed the natural way ...