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by mathieuv
Wed Oct 25, 2017 10:14 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Feeling dissociated, help wanted
Replies: 9
Views: 660

Re: Feeling dissociated, help wanted

Thanks Webwanderer. It feels that my sense or self refers to who I am beyond form / emotions / me as consciousness now. Is that waking up to my essence identity? But I think I can't view my form identity as "wrong" or " bad". I need it in order to live the human experience. When I speak about myself...
by mathieuv
Tue Oct 24, 2017 5:26 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Feeling dissociated, help wanted
Replies: 9
Views: 660

Re: Feeling dissociated, help wanted

That seems imposibble. There is no way back! ☺
Isn't there a Zen saying that says;

Trees are trees before you study zen
Trees aren't trees anymore when starting zen
Trees become trees again

Probably I am in the middle phase.
by mathieuv
Tue Oct 24, 2017 1:49 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Feeling dissociated, help wanted
Replies: 9
Views: 660

Re: Feeling dissociated, help wanted

It feels like I am experiencing a "No-identity" crisis. But who is the I referring too? My ego self? Right? Probably I am overthinking this. But. It seems to me that I need my form-identity in order to participate in this world? I don't want to become strange, suddenly. I am living this human experi...
by mathieuv
Mon Oct 23, 2017 11:39 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Feeling dissociated, help wanted
Replies: 9
Views: 660

Feeling dissociated, help wanted

Hello everyone Ive had a really difficult year with panic disorder, ocd,anxiety and depression like symptoms. In the process of my recovery I read Eckhart's books which were insightful, but perhaps not really helpful. - Since I know I am not my voice in the head, but the awareness that sees this. my...
by mathieuv
Fri Jun 30, 2017 10:28 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Tension in my body
Replies: 2
Views: 449

Tension in my body

Hi everyone, Since picking Eckhart's books, my body awareness increased radically. Now, I am able to notice there is a lot of tension in my body ( unaware of this in the past). Mostly in my back, shoulders, neck and face area. It feels uncomfortable and it feels like my mind is trying too analyze th...
by mathieuv
Wed Mar 01, 2017 10:31 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Observing my thoughts - Sticking points
Replies: 6
Views: 676

Re: Observing my thoughts - Sticking points

So, you may just be having an issue of going back and forth between the intellect (discriminating) and the lower aspect of the mind (the chatter box). Meaning, your "present", then the chatter box aspect of the mind says, "look your present!!!" Which then distracts from being present! If this happe...
by mathieuv
Wed Mar 01, 2017 11:53 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Observing my thoughts - Sticking points
Replies: 6
Views: 676

Re: Observing my thoughts - Sticking points

Thanks for your reply. Still don't feel like I understand everything though. I am doing an activity in the foreground, but in the background I am still watching my thoughts or becoming aware of the fact that I am doing an activity. Good! This is discrimination between you (awareness) and the apparen...
by mathieuv
Tue Feb 28, 2017 4:25 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Observing my thoughts - Sticking points
Replies: 6
Views: 676

Observing my thoughts - Sticking points

Hello Everyone!, My name is Mathieu, 23 years old and I live in Belgium. I had severe depression and anxiety and thankfully Eckhart's teachings helped me to desidentify with my mind and accept everything as it is. I now practise meditation on a daily basis. Nevertheless I still have some sticking po...