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by alchemizt
Sun Sep 15, 2019 5:46 pm
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Mushrooms/DMT/Ayahuasca/Psychedelic
Replies: 6
Views: 2464

Re: Mushrooms/DMT/Ayahuasca/Psychedelic

Practicing presence works well on ayahuasca but is way more difficult. Ayahuasca is good in the way it can bring unconscious blockages and fears to the surface which you can then dissolve with presence. Aya is very mysterious, it provides you with different ways to release these blockages like throu...
by alchemizt
Sun Sep 15, 2019 7:04 am
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Sudden deepening of presence triggered by reading an article and accepting Im getting nowhere
Replies: 1
Views: 35

Sudden deepening of presence triggered by reading an article and accepting Im getting nowhere

Something like a kind of sense of despair drove me to search for articles on how to know if your making progress with meditation. I was hoping to find something that would reassure me that I am making progress which would help keep my hope alive. Instead the article I found is this: https://www.osho...
by alchemizt
Fri Oct 26, 2018 6:15 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Inner body meditation
Replies: 2
Views: 730

Inner body meditation

I been doing this inner body meditation thing regularly for over a year now, its become second nature, it took a while but its gradually becoming automatic and natural. I see how its giving me the ability to be centered and embrace emotions and I can use it any time I'm suffering and it helps immens...
by alchemizt
Sat Oct 20, 2018 4:34 pm
Forum: Spiritual Teachers
Topic: Amma
Replies: 2
Views: 682

Amma

I saw that Amma was in my city last weekend so I went to the event. She was doing this thing called "darshan" where she hugs you and says a mantra in your ear, I went up and did it. I was really nervous at the time. The event went on all night until the next morning, I had no place to stay so stayed...
by alchemizt
Mon Oct 15, 2018 1:38 pm
Forum: General Eckhart Tolle Discussion
Topic: What is spiritual bypassing?
Replies: 5
Views: 838

Re: What is spiritual bypassing?

When it comes to guilt, where does non identification come in? I was just observing guilt about a big mistake I made and struggling with not accepting myself because it damages my self image of being a good person and being worthy. I tried not identifying as this person that feels guilty and instant...
by alchemizt
Sat Oct 13, 2018 6:32 pm
Forum: General Eckhart Tolle Discussion
Topic: What is spiritual bypassing?
Replies: 5
Views: 838

Re: What is spiritual bypassing?

How can I be sure this isn't some kinda bypassing? My take is that if it's a matter of avoidance then it may well be bypassing. If however, it's a matter of perceiving the thing or event that concerns you in a larger context, one that is inclusive of a larger spiritual nature, then it's likely not ...
by alchemizt
Thu Oct 11, 2018 1:10 pm
Forum: General Eckhart Tolle Discussion
Topic: What is spiritual bypassing?
Replies: 5
Views: 838

What is spiritual bypassing?

I can use self inquiry to not worry about things, when a stress/pain creating thought arises I can just watch it without identifying with it, without believing its some kinda absolute truth and like this the thought doesn't even touch me. I'm aware this is something loads of spiritual masters talk a...
by alchemizt
Mon Oct 01, 2018 6:28 pm
Forum: Byron Katie
Topic: What to do when you can't trace the source of the emotion?
Replies: 1
Views: 870

What to do when you can't trace the source of the emotion?

I have a lot of buried trauma and what happens often is the feelings will start to surface but there's no thoughts or information attached so no idea of what the supposed cause of the bad feelings is. A whole lot of subconscious fear comes up in me, sometimes the mind attaches a story, but more ofte...
by alchemizt
Mon Oct 01, 2018 6:18 pm
Forum: Byron Katie
Topic: How to avoid spiritual bypassing
Replies: 1
Views: 2205

How to avoid spiritual bypassing

The self inquiry style done by Byron Katie is working real well for me but I'm a bit worried about spiritual bypassing. There's some things I feel REALLY BAD about, things that happened in the past, if I use the The Work questions on this its like I'm choosing to not take responsibility for what hap...
by alchemizt
Sun Aug 12, 2018 7:25 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Self hatred after messing up something sacred to me
Replies: 3
Views: 935

Self hatred after messing up something sacred to me

I experienced this heart awakening a few years ago and my level of consciousness and life force sky rocketed. A year after that I experienced such a deep crash, I shutdown and felt like I'd lost huge parts of my soul. I went into a state of hopelessness which I couldn't hide, I stopped trying to hid...
by alchemizt
Mon Jun 18, 2018 9:03 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Effort and struggle in awakening - The mind up to it's old tricks?
Replies: 1
Views: 564

Effort and struggle in awakening - The mind up to it's old tricks?

A big source of suffering for me has been my mind telling me that I need to struggle, need to fight, need to put in constant effort to awaken. It's deeper than that, it's tied in with my identity, the mind tells me that unless I struggle and fight and put in constant effort then I'm not worthy. Is t...
by alchemizt
Mon Jun 18, 2018 8:25 pm
Forum: Awakening / Spiritual Enlightenment / Truth-Realization
Topic: Self Deconstruction
Replies: 4
Views: 760

Re: Self Deconstruction

I was wondering today how to relinquish the desire to awaken. Maybe that's the way? I don't know what exactly you mean by authenticity or how to strive for it.
by alchemizt
Mon Jun 18, 2018 4:19 pm
Forum: Awakening / Spiritual Enlightenment / Truth-Realization
Topic: Self Deconstruction
Replies: 4
Views: 760

Self Deconstruction

I see the profound changes that have happened like I've stopped judging people, stopped caring what people think of me, been liberated from rigid concepts, beliefs and thoughts. I'm well aware that these waves of depression and suffering are powerful catalysts for these shifts to happen, and it feel...
by alchemizt
Mon Jun 18, 2018 2:02 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: How I healed my emotional problems
Replies: 2
Views: 773

Re: How I healed my emotional problems

Thanks for sharing this. I have these crazy extreme repressed emotional issues that been bubbling up and plunging me into the depths of despair. I see how its causing this profound, accelerated disidentification with mind and ego in me but holy shit it's rough.
by alchemizt
Mon Jun 18, 2018 1:52 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Despair and depression disappears when I listen to Eckhart Tolle, even when I'm not listening
Replies: 2
Views: 600

Despair and depression disappears when I listen to Eckhart Tolle, even when I'm not listening

These waves of deep depression been hitting me, I'm going into despair, I be feeling it and accepting it as best I can but been struggling, then I listen to Eckhart Tolle and suddenly I'm able to accept the depressed feeling, I'm outta despair. Even when I'm not listening to what hes actually saying...