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by Placebo
Thu Apr 16, 2020 6:44 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Obsessing/being hyperaware of body sensations
Replies: 1
Views: 312

Obsessing/being hyperaware of body sensations

Hey guys. I tend to obsess about all the discomforts, pain, and tingling in my body. Now if I try not to obsess it just makes me obsess more. (Since that is resistance) So I've basically just been letting my mind do whatever it wants. If it obsesses about something for a while, I just let it and it ...
by Placebo
Fri Mar 13, 2020 12:50 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Questioning if I'm being present "correctly"
Replies: 7
Views: 1905

Re: Questioning if I'm being present "correctly"

Ya I'm on many medications actually, including zoloft, diazepam, gabapentin and propanolol. No therapists have been able to help me so far. Many of my current obsessions have to do with wanting to be present. Which traditional therapists don't have a clear understanding of. I have been diagnosed wit...
by Placebo
Wed Mar 11, 2020 2:56 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Questioning if I'm being present "correctly"
Replies: 7
Views: 1905

Re: Questioning if I'm being present "correctly"

Sounds good. I will practice this. I would say half the the I am totally allowing and the other half I am deep down trying to get rid of very strong and distressing obsessions. It feels like I'm trying to accept the unacceptable sometimes. What do you do when something is so massively painful that y...
by Placebo
Sat Mar 07, 2020 9:46 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Questioning if I'm being present "correctly"
Replies: 7
Views: 1905

Re: Questioning if I'm being present "correctly"

Thanks for the response. I see what you're saying. For the last 12 hours I think that I've been more where I'm supposed to be. im spotting resistance that comes in the form of tension, strain and I've been able to let go of it. I think sometimes when my mind gains a huge momentum again is where pres...
by Placebo
Sat Mar 07, 2020 3:01 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Questioning if I'm being present "correctly"
Replies: 7
Views: 1905

Questioning if I'm being present "correctly"

So I know that awareness isin't supposed to be strained attention but when I completely let go of everything to relax then I end up getting stuck in the pain body (trying to fight it) without even realizing it. A good example would be that I get a strong emotion, so I go into my body to watch and fe...
by Placebo
Wed Feb 26, 2020 3:43 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Still having a lot of trouble with obsessive thoughts
Replies: 2
Views: 1545

Still having a lot of trouble with obsessive thoughts

Hey guys. So I've been practicing awareness for a couple of years. I've always been very obsessive in general and have been diagnosed with ocd. I also got into a habit as a kid to push away all painful thoughts and emotions as hard as I could due to previous trauma. I still get stuck pushing away th...
by Placebo
Sun Feb 23, 2020 4:51 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Question about feeling your emotions
Replies: 7
Views: 1925

Re: Question about feeling your emotions

Thanks for the great advice WW. I tend to sometimes get overwhelming emotions like fear or anger towards small things and I'm definitely going to keep practicing looking inward. I think there is a lot I don't understand about myself. I had been trying to force every negative emotion or sensation awa...
by Placebo
Tue Feb 11, 2020 10:08 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Question about feeling your emotions
Replies: 7
Views: 1925

Re: Question about feeling your emotions

If you are thinking about them, or even worrying about prolonging them at the moment of observation, or perhaps even now, there looks to be a good chance you might be prolonging them, simply because you think or worry about it. Are you identifying with them? Observing emotions, even if unbearable, ...
by Placebo
Tue Feb 11, 2020 9:56 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Question about feeling your emotions
Replies: 7
Views: 1925

Re: Question about feeling your emotions

emotions themselves don't last that long really only a few seconds. Feel them and let them pass through you, don't focus on them or label them, just let them go Awesome thanks. This makes total sense. I see what I'm doing wrong. I am allowing them and not trying to push them away but I also focus o...
by Placebo
Tue Feb 11, 2020 1:13 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Question about feeling your emotions
Replies: 7
Views: 1925

Question about feeling your emotions

Hey everyone, Hope all is well. I have a quick question about something I tend to get confused about. So..we know that we are supposed allow and fully feel our emotions (good and bad) Now sometimes I wonder if I'm simply letting my emotions be and feeling them, or if I'm giving them too much attenti...
by Placebo
Tue May 28, 2019 10:16 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Intrusive Thoughts
Replies: 3
Views: 1543

Re: Intrusive Thoughts

Thanks WW. I'm trying to ignore without force more and more. They're still there but progress is being made. If course they won't disappear overnight since I have so much attention to them.
by Placebo
Fri May 24, 2019 7:11 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Intrusive Thoughts
Replies: 3
Views: 1543

Intrusive Thoughts

Hey everyone! Hope all is well. My question involves constant intrusive thoughts. They consist of images that gross me out to a high degree such as gore. A huge feeling of contraction and tension follows. I realize that it is me who is reacting to the thoughts. But it feels like an automatic, knee j...
by Placebo
Fri Aug 17, 2018 8:40 am
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Stillness cured me of 17 years of constant poly substance abuse
Replies: 2
Views: 2604

Re: Stillness cured me of 17 years of constant poly substance abuse

Thank you. It really is a miracle and I never saw a way out due to being so identified with my pain body and ego as a whole.
by Placebo
Tue Jul 31, 2018 10:24 am
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Stillness cured me of 17 years of constant poly substance abuse
Replies: 2
Views: 2604

Stillness cured me of 17 years of constant poly substance abuse

Hey guys I just wanted to briefly share my miraculous (in my eyes) experience with my spiritual journey freeing me from the shackles of drug and alcohol addiction. I had a deeply painful childhood and was strongly identified with my extremely negative story. At age 15, I dove straight in and had use...
by Placebo
Tue Jul 31, 2018 2:05 am
Forum: Personal Experiences
Topic: Marijuana and Presence
Replies: 33
Views: 21306

Re: Marijuana and Presence

I have many years of experience smoking weed. I do think it is possible to have a very conscious and even eye opening experience (iv'e had them) BUT only when used in moderation. Smoking everyday starts to produce a dullness in most people. If I smoke it heavily, even for only a few days, I feel tha...