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by AwakeTheCat
Wed Sep 19, 2018 3:30 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: When the now is peaceful but not what you want
Replies: 16
Views: 589

Re: When the now is peaceful but not what you want

Hi Andy - Thanks for the well thought out reply. Very appreciated. Presence is a cauldron. No fixations can survive in it while it is fully operational. But old "subconscious beliefs" are neurophysiological patterns buried very deeply. Awakening (at least for me) was the sudden recognition that "I'm...
by AwakeTheCat
Sun Sep 16, 2018 10:10 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: The Paradox of Wanting Nirvana
Replies: 30
Views: 1339

Re: The Paradox of Wanting Nirvana

All this is eminently true, well said, kiki. The only thing I would add is that there is not a mechanical two-step cognitive procedure to "presenting a persona." When our neighbor says "Hi, how's it going?" we don't go through the process of saying "whoops, here is my neighbor, so now I do persona ...
by AwakeTheCat
Sun Sep 16, 2018 9:57 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: The Paradox of Wanting Nirvana
Replies: 30
Views: 1339

Re: The Paradox of Wanting Nirvana

Your understanding is very solid. My only clarification is this: There is no decision I make to "put on the ego" for whatever the situation requires; it just happens on its own. I'm in the world and whatever the requirement is for me to respond appropriately to the situation happens automatically. ...
by AwakeTheCat
Sun Sep 16, 2018 9:53 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: The Paradox of Wanting Nirvana
Replies: 30
Views: 1339

Re: The Paradox of Wanting Nirvana

Kiki sets a very high bar when it comes to ego, and does so quite lucidly. My sense is this: In order to be totally free of ego one must be free of all identifications. That's tough. Those identifiers after all, are the substance of ego. Identifications are very subtle things. Almost every 'I am', ...
by AwakeTheCat
Sun Sep 16, 2018 8:26 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: The Paradox of Wanting Nirvana
Replies: 30
Views: 1339

Re: The Paradox of Wanting Nirvana

When we go about our daily lives we often interact with others, and in so doing we present to them the persona that they've been accustomed to seeing - in other words, to them we are what we've always been. They may know us as a neighbor, so we respond as their neighbor; they may know us as a teach...
by AwakeTheCat
Sat Sep 15, 2018 3:04 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: The Paradox of Wanting Nirvana
Replies: 30
Views: 1339

Re: The Paradox of Wanting Nirvana

In doing this the ego's fear of losing its perceived throne and life diminished - ego didn't actually "die" because it was seen never to have "lived" to begin with. That meant ego could come and go, but no longer would it be the troublesome factor it once was when it was believed to be and identifi...
by AwakeTheCat
Sat Sep 15, 2018 2:35 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: When the now is peaceful but not what you want
Replies: 16
Views: 589

Re: When the now is peaceful but not what you want

Hi Andy, Thanks for the response. It makes a lot of sense. After my big Event, old stuff was still there, but it had to survive the cauldron of Presence to continue to affect me. ...Acceptance is yielding but not surrendering. What do you mean by the "cauldron of Presence"? As in some of your old ha...
by AwakeTheCat
Fri Sep 14, 2018 6:41 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: When the now is peaceful but not what you want
Replies: 16
Views: 589

Re: When the now is peaceful but not what you want

Great! Now that I understand your meaning in the Present Moment, let me tell you the story of my 'awakening,' it's directly related. My wife brought home PON about 11 years ago and said "you might like this." Like kiki, I studied and practiced TM for many years (since 1974.) And had been searching ...
by AwakeTheCat
Thu Sep 13, 2018 11:56 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: When the now is peaceful but not what you want
Replies: 16
Views: 589

Re: When the now is peaceful but not what you want

@ Sighclone - Got it. Thank you for the nuanced discussion and making me examine this. I am happy to report that I do mean this very moment. I'm definitely not talking about some goal or objective. I literally mean, what is in the here and now that I can sense I'm supposed to do. Words are tricky, a...
by AwakeTheCat
Thu Sep 13, 2018 9:41 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: When the now is peaceful but not what you want
Replies: 16
Views: 589

Re: When the now is peaceful but not what you want

practical things I want to achieve. Getting the green drink is one of these. Finishing the post is one of these. Is not "having a good relationship with my mother" one of these? How about "getting a good job as a (_____)." Or retiring without debt. Or "awakening." Distinguishing authentic "nudges f...
by AwakeTheCat
Wed Sep 12, 2018 10:49 pm
Forum: Pain and Suffering
Topic: Don’t deserve to be happy?
Replies: 6
Views: 377

Re: Don’t deserve to be happy?

The thinker is a subtle creature that loves to live in its own identity. Thoughts coalesce around emotions and create beliefs that are adopted as identifications. Then we live them as experiential reality. The good news is that they can make us stronger - and it's infinitely helpful in raising our ...
by AwakeTheCat
Wed Sep 12, 2018 7:19 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: When the now is peaceful but not what you want
Replies: 16
Views: 589

Re: When the now is peaceful but not what you want

When you are fully present there are no expectations; there are no preferences; there are no regrets; there are no aversions; there are no wants; there are no hopes or desires for things to be anything different than what is currently appearing. Peace isn't dependent upon thinking. In fact, it ofte...
by AwakeTheCat
Tue Sep 11, 2018 5:45 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: The Paradox of Wanting Nirvana
Replies: 30
Views: 1339

Re: The Paradox of Wanting Nirvana

There are others, of course, and it's a matter for each person to see the many ways ego intrudes in their own lives. But whatever I could see ego/mind doing I took an attitude of curiosity about what would happen if I dropped them during this particular time of investigation, knowing I could always...
by AwakeTheCat
Tue Sep 11, 2018 3:48 am
Forum: Pain and Suffering
Topic: Anger overwhelms me
Replies: 5
Views: 759

Re: Anger overwhelms me

I am familiar with emotions being the guidance of our true being, but you are welcome to explain on this a little more. And this is confusing me to most: If anger is my emotional guidence, does it not mean that I should stop thinking/doing something that makes me angry? And even if not stoping with...