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by SamiT
Mon May 27, 2019 7:37 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: CANNOT cope with this fear
Replies: 19
Views: 510

Re: CANNOT cope with this fear

I know no-one can save me from my own creations, i am finding it hard not to hate the life i have created for myself and its lasting impact from that trauma from 7 years ago.
by SamiT
Mon May 27, 2019 11:35 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: CANNOT cope with this fear
Replies: 19
Views: 510

Re: CANNOT cope with this fear

So I’m trying to stay present and practising what WW has suggested, I have had so much sick time off work due to this anxiety and I have had a text message this morning from my boss saying she wants to speak to me when I go in on Wednesday as I have had so much time off in a short space of time and ...
by SamiT
Sun May 19, 2019 10:31 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: CANNOT cope with this fear
Replies: 19
Views: 510

Re: CANNOT cope with this fear

WW I did it. I was focusing on my life to get up and just laugh, to go out in nature, to play with my daughter, to feel physically well, to be able to go into work without keep ringing in sick. I felt what it was like to wake up in the morning and feel okay. I had thoughts of fear coming up and phys...
by SamiT
Fri May 17, 2019 10:06 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: CANNOT cope with this fear
Replies: 19
Views: 510

Re: CANNOT cope with this fear

Okay I will do, I am sorry I am really struggling to retain information, I promise you that I am trying my absolute best.... That I am a conscious being all the beliefs that I have, that I have acquired over my lifetime, are determining what my life is like now. I am consciously choosing the belief ...
by SamiT
Fri May 17, 2019 7:10 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: CANNOT cope with this fear
Replies: 19
Views: 510

Re: CANNOT cope with this fear

Thanks for the replies. I know I sound like a victim and I’m sat on my pity pot, I am just trying to get out how I feel and how this is impacting my life so so much. I had a nurse say to me in A&E no wonder I’ve seen you here before you’ve been that may times. I try I really try my best to take a st...
by SamiT
Fri May 17, 2019 9:51 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: CANNOT cope with this fear
Replies: 19
Views: 510

Re: CANNOT cope with this fear

WW

please can you expand a bit more on this....... “Know you can create new ways of thinking of your 'self'. It's simply the way of growth.”

Thanks
by SamiT
Thu May 16, 2019 9:23 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: CANNOT cope with this fear
Replies: 19
Views: 510

Re: CANNOT cope with this fear

Thanks WW!

I am very determined I mean so determined I hate living like this. It’s so exhausting and fearful. I’m in fear every minute of everyday. I will have a look at joes videos.

I am now thinking that my ego is too strong surely consciousness does not want me to suffer like this? 😓
by SamiT
Thu May 16, 2019 5:43 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: CANNOT cope with this fear
Replies: 19
Views: 510

Re: CANNOT cope with this fear

Thanks WW.

I just don’t know how to get through this I really don’t.
by SamiT
Wed May 15, 2019 10:43 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: CANNOT cope with this fear
Replies: 19
Views: 510

CANNOT cope with this fear

I literally cannot see any light at the end of the tunnel. I am so fed up it's untrue. This is not a life I am not living it absolutely sucks. I am so full of fear it consumes me. Went to the gym to try and feel healthier in myself. Hasn't eaten anything went on the treadmill pushed myself a little ...
by SamiT
Sat May 11, 2019 1:10 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Consciousness
Replies: 20
Views: 543

Re: Consciousness

Thanks WW. The reason which causes my body to be out of control, I.e not being physically able to move was because I took some tablets to help me sleep because I had been up drinking, the combination of the same caused me to overdose and I went unconscious. The last conscious memory I have is I was ...
by SamiT
Sat May 11, 2019 12:03 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Consciousness
Replies: 20
Views: 543

Re: Consciousness

Mmmm that’s a very good question. Okay I remember when I collapsed I tried to move my legs and arms and I couldn’t it was that feeling of being out of control of my own body. I don’t know why I have the fear of a heart attack, nothing was wrong with my heart. I’m not scared of dying i don’t think, a...
by SamiT
Fri May 10, 2019 10:32 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Consciousness
Replies: 20
Views: 543

Re: Consciousness

I think the only reason I’m struggling is because I act out believing my egos thoughts. For example when I’m caught up completely in ego and my mind is telling my I’m going to die or have a heart attack and I act on those thoughts so I go to the hospital. It’s the actions that follows the thoughts t...
by SamiT
Fri May 10, 2019 8:12 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Consciousness
Replies: 20
Views: 543

Re: Consciousness

The pull of my ego is extremely strong I am really struggling to stay present and watch the fearful thoughts it drags me along like a wild river.
by SamiT
Thu May 09, 2019 10:40 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Consciousness
Replies: 20
Views: 543

Re: Consciousness

Hi I have watched the video of the neurosurgeon Eben Alexandar which I enjoyed. I liked the points he said on prayer. My question is this, a few years ago I collapsed (my own fault I drank too much) and was unconscious seizures etc. My question is this, if awareness is always there without thought e...
by SamiT
Wed May 08, 2019 10:45 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Consciousness
Replies: 20
Views: 543

Re: Consciousness

Thanks WW.

I will come back with any questions.