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by meetjoeblack
Mon Mar 12, 2012 8:19 pm
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 23181

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

I am just so angry. You've gone beyond anger joeblack. Anger lasts 15 seconds - long enough to say 'no thank you', not to life, but to the frame of mind you are in and then choose between the real and viable options open to you. Emotive backlashes and explosions like you're experiencing are rage, l...
by meetjoeblack
Thu Mar 01, 2012 3:47 am
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 23181

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

We may not (to our knowledge) have 'chosen' what we got, but we do have the free will to decide HOW we will live with what we are given - with crippling self-pity that begets eternal victimhood and suffering, or with appreciation and compassion, true compassion that accepts 'what is' and shines out...
by meetjoeblack
Thu Mar 01, 2012 3:41 am
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 23181

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

How much free will do we truly have? Okay joe, I understand that you are angry at what life is giving you. Now, can you use this freewill that you have to investigate why this is so? .. or will you continue to use this free will to continue to remain angry and curse at it and say how unfair it is. ...
by meetjoeblack
Thu Mar 01, 2012 3:38 am
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 23181

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

I just had a mental melt down. How? Cause my home is empty, cause I don't see my dad or sister any more. Why? Cause of fucking drunk driving. I see my reflection and I get depressed. I have tried all this self help, work on improvements, and it is no use. I am handed more bullshit then I can bare. I...
by meetjoeblack
Thu Feb 02, 2012 12:38 am
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 23181

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

I just don't get it that if God is so loving, why sit back and watch the world burmn? because of freewill, man. hmm ...maybe you should find out who this God really is ? Ask and you will receive. Seek and you will find. Knock and the door will answer. I grew up believing this, living this, doing ch...
by meetjoeblack
Sun Jan 29, 2012 4:03 am
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 23181

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

I see how fucked up the world is, and I want out. I do feel your pain but I am not you so I can't offer much help there but I can tell you this : ... can you see that not only it is you that's fucked up but they (everyone including myself) are fucked up as well, ... another way of saying it is that...
by meetjoeblack
Fri Jan 27, 2012 11:13 pm
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 23181

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

The only thing that has kept me from putting myself our of misery is a belief in god. I don't believe any more. I stopped the day I lost my sister and dad in a accident. Ask and you'll receive? Bullshit. More pain is all I ever known. Life has only brought me suffering. My mom is always miserable. I...
by meetjoeblack
Wed Oct 26, 2011 5:57 pm
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 23181

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

The pain body has been with me for more than four decades, so consider yourself lucky (assuming it has been only one decade) ! I don't think you understand what it is like to come outside with scars on your face. Had it been from a fight or a car accident, I could understand. Acne though? Its such ...
by meetjoeblack
Mon Oct 10, 2011 3:12 am
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 23181

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

Now, on a different tact, acne and other skin conditions like excema and psorosis are particularly debilitating because if you do a bit of study into the dynamics of attraction which is the way we are wired from early times, humans in bygone times had to judge a partner to reproduce with, one of th...
by meetjoeblack
Tue Aug 16, 2011 10:12 pm
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 23181

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

Are you married now? Family? Kids? I'm married. No kids, but that was a choice. If you saw me, you wouldn't know I'd been in an automobile accident. Like I said, I look fine. But you know how it is when you get a new car and someone hits it? They can do bodywork, but it's never quite the same (thin...
by meetjoeblack
Mon Aug 15, 2011 9:40 pm
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 23181

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

What is even more upsetting is that, if a scar came from a car accident, it would happen and be over. When I was 19 I went out drinking with my girlfriends. Right before I left, the bartender told me how beautiful I was. On the way home I fell asleep at the wheel and hit a tree. I smashed my face a...
by meetjoeblack
Fri Aug 12, 2011 11:00 pm
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 23181

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

Hey Joe, I could write a message re: its your self worth and that doesn't come from whether or not you have bad skin (very external) but I'll tell a little personal experience. When I was about 40 I decided to upgrade my face a bit and get some botox for the frown lines (you know, fabulous at 40 ap...
by meetjoeblack
Fri Aug 05, 2011 5:44 pm
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 23181

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

Have you tried being intimate with the pain and the suffering? I mean have you tried fully feeling it? With no resistance and no movement away from it? Just you and the pain. You talk about "battling" your pain body. Can you stop putting up a fight? Just let the pain be. By resisting the pain, mayb...
by meetjoeblack
Tue Aug 02, 2011 2:27 am
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 23181

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

Hi meetjoeblack, welcome to the boards! I'm afraid I cannot really offer a word of help, but I'd like to say that reading your post seemed to have tapped into my own pain body. An immense sadness has come around me while reading your story, I was tearing up for a while. I had cystic acne for a whil...
by meetjoeblack
Tue Aug 02, 2011 2:24 am
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 23181

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

I know it's hard, but please be patient and don't judge yourself because of this. Stressing over it will only contribute additional hardship to your body. Yes, the body has a certain appearance, but what You are has nothing to do with the body. I've seeked out models, brad pitt, Dane cook, Seal, Ka...