Hi Jen- Thanks for your response! Since you were using dish washing as an example (a good one, I might add:) I wanted to ask a question using that specific topic: In the evenings, I wash my husband's and my dishes from dinner after making and eating the meal. I cannot lie and say that I would REALLY...
May I ask you what you did during those 3 years of isolation? How the isolation even began? If you aren't comfortable with writing me about it I certainly understand, of course!
I guess that questioning our current understanding does need questioning now and then! But I feel like I'm doing it almost nonstop and sort of feeding a frenzied obsession for more and more perspectives. Instead of just relaxing in the moment- which is ultimately the point! I think what struck me ab...
Hi everyone, Mckenna's estimate that there are only a few dozen truth-related beings alive on earth at any time and that 1 in a hundred million actually make it... What is this based on? How does he know how many people are actually enlightened or not? I'm just curious how he arrived at this persona...
erpman and Golf, You two are offering a lot of insight and I appreciate it! Golf: your revelation (that arose from observing and instinct, I imagine) about focusing your attention to other things and people in your life and choosing not to forget about yourself for awhile in order to balance your li...
Thank you, kiki- that helped clarify some of my questions. The fear I experienced when I read that section on spiritual bypassing was triggered by the ego's immediate and unrefuted response which basically exclaimed, "You are going about this the wrong way! Everything you have been doing in this pro...
I have been reading Adyashanti's 'The End of Your World' and it is really intriguing so far. I was reading chapter 4 and approached the sectioned entitled, 'Freedom Through Inquiry" where he discusses spiritual bypassing and how easily deceptive it is. When I read this, I felt the leaden impact of f...
I´m on it! But do you think that there is a point to trying to figure out where it comes from, like if it could be pain-body residues from that break-up for example? Or is this sort of unease actually just an interanlized resistance to the now? This is a question I have also. I mean, is trying to f...
Golf, when you say look inside to sense what is inside of you vs trying to sense the quietness, do you mean that on a more physical level? Like focusing on the physical sensations of whatever feeling arises. Focus on the sensation of the knot in the stomach, burning in the throat, palpitations, etc.?
Well said. It seems like so many of us struggle with "trying to be present". We are all so conditioned in our own way. Reconditioning is where the effort lies. The effort to be effortless... I do tend to view it as being a process of reconditioning. I just started reading Adya's 'The End of Your Wor...
Jen, Yes, the breathing is what I inevitably resort to in every situation now. It has become almost automatic for me because I have been practicing it so much. And since reading your post, I have been trying to focus on the outer breathe more than I was before. In retrospect I can see that I "forgot...
I know that this is the time to truly surrender, but I can't. I don't know how. It doesn't "work". I desperately want to let reality be what it is and accept it. I can't explain it. It's as though everything is so chaotic and wild and obscured and deeply rooted and it becomes a forest fire that I ca...
I really thought about what you wrote, Golf. I am a first time mom to an 11 month old and as wonderful as it is, it is also extremely taxing in every way. Lots of new fears and concerns. And the lack of sleep is a very large issue- effects my mood and functioning greatly. With this new change in our...
Thanks to both of you for replying. I appreciate it. I think that the level of my obscurity is so heavy right now- so frantic, that I might just need to take a break from the practicing and meditating attempts. I find myself toying with the idea that I might need hospitalization at this point. Howev...