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by kutto
Wed Aug 14, 2013 5:21 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Is there no free will?
Replies: 62
Views: 5903

Re: Is there no free will?

Undecidable in relation to what? Whether it is true? True relative to what? From what basis is the true / false question applied? What matters is that it is true in your experience. You can call everything an illusion and deconstruct it such that you can 'prove' it and at some level it is true. All ...
by kutto
Tue Aug 13, 2013 11:33 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Is there no free will?
Replies: 62
Views: 5903

Re: Is there no free will?

I will explain my own understanding as best I can. We are three part beings. The terms for this vary but I prefer spirit, soul and body (body encompassing mind). Our spirit is our drop in the ocean of pure oneness / love that is God / Creator. There is no becoming at this level - there is only being...
by kutto
Tue Aug 13, 2013 7:48 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Is there no free will?
Replies: 62
Views: 5903

Re: Is there no free will?

My belief is this: You always have free will. It is a gift from the creator / consciousness / god. You are free to make any choice you are presented with and in doing so create other choices based on cause and effect and universal law. In doing so you and your soul explore all possible human experie...
by kutto
Thu Aug 08, 2013 5:32 am
Forum: Pain and Suffering
Topic: So ANGRY right now!
Replies: 15
Views: 4730

Re: So ANGRY right now!

I'm on a similar journey to Jim - resolving childhood hurts which are the root of the 'dragging back into darkness'. Also suffering from a lot of ancient anger surfacing - it can be hard to vent this when the original cause was decades ago and it very is corrosive to hold it. I will say that spritiu...
by kutto
Fri Jul 19, 2013 7:52 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: ego and shamed child is there a difference
Replies: 11
Views: 1989

Re: ego and shamed child is there a difference

I think I can relate to what you are trying to say but am finding it difficult to put into words. But I feel it is related to boundaries and emotional distortion and also being allowed to own pain inflicted by others and grieve that pain. Shame is one of the most destructive and emotionally warping ...
by kutto
Wed Jun 26, 2013 4:17 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Breaking THROUGH! More confusion and more pain...
Replies: 9
Views: 1310

Re: Breaking THROUGH! More confusion and more pain...

This series of 'articles' give a great description of the psychological characteristics of moving from an ego dominant existence to a heart based one and the states you describe are very consistent with the early stages of disconnecting with the ego dominant state and reconnecting with and healing i...
by kutto
Tue Jun 25, 2013 12:05 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Physical Pressure and Rigidity - Painbody?
Replies: 17
Views: 3597

More anger release

Anger and I think supressed judgement feelings have been surfacing for a few weeks now. I just wanted to share the form of this and I am curious if others have any similar experiences. Basically it arises often as facial grimaces, angry expressions and a pressing together of the lips and pouting exp...
by kutto
Mon Jun 03, 2013 5:15 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Growing up as an extension to a parents Ego
Replies: 6
Views: 1128

Re: Growing up as an extension to a parents Ego

Thanks for your comments Rideforever. I wanted to make a couple of follow up points. You say the "ego" did this to me ... this does not feel right to me - The point of the metaphorical story was to highlight that it was not my fathers heart that lead to the emotional abuse - it was the defensive mec...
by kutto
Thu May 30, 2013 2:43 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Growing up as an extension to a parents Ego
Replies: 6
Views: 1128

Growing up as an extension to a parents Ego

Ego is a poor parent. When I was growing up I essentially was attached to my father through his angry fragile ego. Instead of near his heart. For a small child this is kind of like living on the edge of a crumbling cliff with a terrifying drop into an abyss of abandonment threatening at any time. Yo...
by kutto
Wed May 29, 2013 11:43 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: In committing to truth you keep finding false
Replies: 3
Views: 740

In committing to truth you keep finding false

As I endeavour to observe myself more I just keep finding more false. And more negative intent towards people that I would typically care to admit. It tends to be anger - as noted elsewhere I am having a few issues with anger but I did not realise quite how much I project it outwards till I slowed d...
by kutto
Mon May 27, 2013 12:53 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Physical Pressure and Rigidity - Painbody?
Replies: 17
Views: 3597

Re: Physical Pressure and Rigidity - Painbody?

Thanks for your comments rideforever. I note as well that my face tends to pull to the left and sometimes I have similar feeling in my abdomen that wants to distinctly pull to the left. I think I read somewhere negative energy can accumulate in the left side of our bodies / energy. I will also say t...
by kutto
Mon May 27, 2013 4:41 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: opinions please. Tolle = another lost chance at hope?
Replies: 13
Views: 2843

Re: opinions please. Tolle = another lost chance at hope?

Hi heretoask, I would comment that after reading A New Earth and looking to Tolle further I has a similar reaction to your own - A bit too much corporate polish around the main Tolle website for me and a bit too much to be paid to access more online material - to me it detracts from the message and ...
by kutto
Mon May 27, 2013 12:49 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Physical Pressure and Rigidity - Painbody?
Replies: 17
Views: 3597

Angry voice

Hi everyone, Just wanted to post a little update on this and see if anyone has any similar experience to this. I have been sitting with my feelings as much as possible and my face continues to bunch up in angry expressions. Mid last week I found words coming with it that were nasty and viscious. It ...
by kutto
Wed May 15, 2013 12:09 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Physical Pressure and Rigidity - Painbody?
Replies: 17
Views: 3597

Re: Physical Pressure and Rigidity - Painbody?

I have been listening to some Barry Long tapes. Thankyou so much Magpie for bringing his teachings to my attention.

Simon
by kutto
Tue May 14, 2013 12:34 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Physical Pressure and Rigidity - Painbody?
Replies: 17
Views: 3597

Re: Physical Pressure and Rigidity - Painbody?

As one further comment I think I am encountering many feelings that were first encountered as a small child and I am reacting the same way - To self criticise - essentially before my father did to 'beat him to it' to lessen the impact of this. I need to learn that those feelings do not need that rea...