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by Admiral Akmir
Thu Apr 21, 2016 6:45 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: It all feels like an excuse sometimes
Replies: 6
Views: 1571

It all feels like an excuse sometimes

Sometimes it all feels like a huge lie... I've been very uncomfortable with my past self for as long as I can remember, and it feels great to say "It's not me, it's not my fault, that isn't really who I am." Lately it's all felt like a big dream to me, something to make me feel better, but ultimatel...
by Admiral Akmir
Mon Dec 07, 2015 6:59 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: What do we want?
Replies: 20
Views: 4035

Re: What do we want?

It's interesting, the guiding energy does not always point to the easy path. I used to drink at social events, because it made it easier to talk to people. Sometimes I would keep drinking, and I'd feel that pull, to stop, or to never start in the first place. But the fear and anxiety were powerful e...
by Admiral Akmir
Sun Dec 06, 2015 9:18 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: What do we want?
Replies: 20
Views: 4035

What do we want?

There seems to an inner voice that tells me what I should or shouldn't be doing. It's not an actual voice, but a pulling in one direction or the other. If I join in on gossip, or speak poorly of another person, I feel a pulling against that, like something's trying to stop me. If I pay attention to ...
by Admiral Akmir
Sat Jul 26, 2014 8:18 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Lose presence when in groups?
Replies: 7
Views: 1055

Re: Lose presence when in groups?

Often times at work, or sometimes in other situations when I'm around people, it feels like I become a caricature. There's this one person I joke around with a lot, we're always poking and jabbing at each other, throwing food, trying to scare each other. I've noticed that underneath all of that, I f...
by Admiral Akmir
Sat Jul 26, 2014 7:44 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: the key is the communication
Replies: 4
Views: 1229

Re: the key is the communication

My dad has that book and I read it many years ago, I always mean to pick it up again, but I always forget when I go to his place.
by Admiral Akmir
Tue Jul 08, 2014 5:48 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: ADD/Wired Brain and Being Present
Replies: 15
Views: 2539

Re: ADD/Wired Brain and Being Present

I've wondered the same thing, about disability. Is it a wiring of the brain? Or is it caused by conditioning? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O1m6k7Ji-6o This guy, through his experience being a therapist for over thirty years, believes that the great majority of "mental illness" is actually a sympto...
by Admiral Akmir
Sun Jul 06, 2014 10:06 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Sudden outburst of emotions while learning?
Replies: 0
Views: 930

Sudden outburst of emotions while learning?

I came across a non profit site, and set of videos created by a man who has been a family systems therapist for over thirty years. The site outlines a series of traits and behaviors of a person who has significant psychological wounds from childhood, I fit the traits almost perfectly. The site has a...
by Admiral Akmir
Fri Jul 04, 2014 6:49 pm
Forum: General Eckhart Tolle Discussion
Topic: vegetarian/vegan
Replies: 64
Views: 16018

Re: vegetarian/vegan

I'm not a vegan, but I've found this guys videos to be pretty informative. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jaiU6RVC2Jk He's covered pretty much every argument that's come from the low carb, high fat, or "paleo" people. It hasn't turned me to become vegan, but it has made me weary of listening to diet...
by Admiral Akmir
Mon Jun 23, 2014 5:46 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Does the Power of Now contradict dieting?
Replies: 12
Views: 2000

Re: Does the Power of Now contradict dieting?

sardinelover wrote:Forget about TPON. Cake wins. Enjoy. :twisted:

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Game over.
by Admiral Akmir
Sat Jun 21, 2014 6:47 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: Slap in the face
Replies: 200
Views: 17459

Re: Slap in the face

A lot of the concepts in TPoN seemed really difficult to grasp for me, I've only had one other experience in my life that parallels this; addiction. We had all sorts of drug and alcohol awareness programs and things in school, I was well aware of what the police officers told us, and what the books ...
by Admiral Akmir
Sat Jun 21, 2014 6:35 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Emotions that can't be identified.
Replies: 2
Views: 563

Emotions that can't be identified.

Does anyone have these? To explain further, things like anger, sadness and happiness are pretty easy to identify, but there are some emotions in me that I'm not really sure what they are. I've had them for a very long time, they seem to lie somewhere in the realm of disgust, self hatred and shame, b...
by Admiral Akmir
Sat Jun 14, 2014 5:30 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Don't know how to forgive, never have + extreme rage
Replies: 12
Views: 1934

Re: Don't know how to forgive, never have + extreme rage

When I get very angry, I swear, I punch things, I am very tense. I can observe that in myself, but in doing so it feels like I'm denying the anger. Punching, swearing, storming around is unconscious, so I won't do those things... The feelings are still there, but now I'm not allowing myself to act t...
by Admiral Akmir
Tue Apr 15, 2014 1:18 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Before bed meditation and dreams
Replies: 6
Views: 1321

Re: Before bed meditation and dreams

Well, stories of possession and bad experiences aside, I'm not really comfortable with things that are even remotely "supernatural", so I think I'll let this practice go in favor of something different. I've had good experiences with progressive muscle relaxation in the past, but haven't really prac...
by Admiral Akmir
Mon Apr 14, 2014 11:39 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Before bed meditation and dreams
Replies: 6
Views: 1321

Re: Before bed meditation and dreams

I did some reading and found a number of articles that were very much against qigong. I found several accounts of people experiencing sleep paralysis on a regular basis and having hallucinations. I read one account of a guy who claimed he could feel something living in him and had to be exorcised by...
by Admiral Akmir
Mon Apr 14, 2014 6:50 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Before bed meditation and dreams
Replies: 6
Views: 1321

Before bed meditation and dreams

The last two nights I've tried some Qigong meditation before bed. It seems to make me feel better, but once I fall asleep I have some wicked dreams. The first night it was some emotional stuff, and a dream about relapsing on drugs. Then last night it was some really creepy stuff about aliens, and I ...