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by SamiT
Thu May 16, 2019 5:43 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: CANNOT cope with this fear
Replies: 19
Views: 2568

Re: CANNOT cope with this fear

Thanks WW.

I just don’t know how to get through this I really don’t.
by SamiT
Wed May 15, 2019 10:43 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: CANNOT cope with this fear
Replies: 19
Views: 2568

CANNOT cope with this fear

I literally cannot see any light at the end of the tunnel. I am so fed up it's untrue. This is not a life I am not living it absolutely sucks. I am so full of fear it consumes me. Went to the gym to try and feel healthier in myself. Hasn't eaten anything went on the treadmill pushed myself a little ...
by SamiT
Sat May 11, 2019 1:10 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Consciousness
Replies: 20
Views: 3547

Re: Consciousness

Thanks WW. The reason which causes my body to be out of control, I.e not being physically able to move was because I took some tablets to help me sleep because I had been up drinking, the combination of the same caused me to overdose and I went unconscious. The last conscious memory I have is I was ...
by SamiT
Sat May 11, 2019 12:03 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Consciousness
Replies: 20
Views: 3547

Re: Consciousness

Mmmm that’s a very good question. Okay I remember when I collapsed I tried to move my legs and arms and I couldn’t it was that feeling of being out of control of my own body. I don’t know why I have the fear of a heart attack, nothing was wrong with my heart. I’m not scared of dying i don’t think, a...
by SamiT
Fri May 10, 2019 10:32 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Consciousness
Replies: 20
Views: 3547

Re: Consciousness

I think the only reason I’m struggling is because I act out believing my egos thoughts. For example when I’m caught up completely in ego and my mind is telling my I’m going to die or have a heart attack and I act on those thoughts so I go to the hospital. It’s the actions that follows the thoughts t...
by SamiT
Fri May 10, 2019 8:12 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Consciousness
Replies: 20
Views: 3547

Re: Consciousness

The pull of my ego is extremely strong I am really struggling to stay present and watch the fearful thoughts it drags me along like a wild river.
by SamiT
Thu May 09, 2019 10:40 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Consciousness
Replies: 20
Views: 3547

Re: Consciousness

Hi I have watched the video of the neurosurgeon Eben Alexandar which I enjoyed. I liked the points he said on prayer. My question is this, a few years ago I collapsed (my own fault I drank too much) and was unconscious seizures etc. My question is this, if awareness is always there without thought e...
by SamiT
Wed May 08, 2019 10:45 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Consciousness
Replies: 20
Views: 3547

Re: Consciousness

Thanks WW.

I will come back with any questions.
by SamiT
Wed May 08, 2019 9:15 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Consciousness
Replies: 20
Views: 3547

Re: Consciousness

Thanks WW.

Yes I would be grateful if you could point me in the right direction please.
by SamiT
Wed May 08, 2019 5:51 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Consciousness
Replies: 20
Views: 3547

Re: Consciousness

Thanks for your response.

The only other help I sought was doctors and therapists and then I got led to 12 step fellowship and then I found Eckhart.

It seems that the Ego is the source of all my problems from addiction to anxiety. The false sense of self that I thought was me all my life.
by SamiT
Wed May 08, 2019 11:44 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Consciousness
Replies: 20
Views: 3547

Re: Consciousness

Anybody?
by SamiT
Tue May 07, 2019 6:17 pm
Forum: Questions
Topic: Consciousness
Replies: 20
Views: 3547

Consciousness

Hey everyone I have another question. In our 12 step fellowship as alcoholics and addicts we have to come to believe in a power greater than ourselves that can restore us to sanity and we have to turn our will and our lives over to that power in order to enable us to have any sort of life free of al...
by SamiT
Fri May 03, 2019 8:18 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: In need of some serious help!!!
Replies: 30
Views: 3430

Re: In need of some serious help!!!

Okay I will give it a shot. Thanks for all your help and I will.report back.
by SamiT
Fri May 03, 2019 4:49 pm
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: In need of some serious help!!!
Replies: 30
Views: 3430

Re: In need of some serious help!!!

Yes thanks WW. I’ve had that many physical sensations over the years with this health anxiety and my mind ALWAYS convinced me it’s something sinister and every single time it has turned out to Be nothing. One time I sat in the emergency room for 4 hours CONVINCED I was having a heart attack (im only...
by SamiT
Fri May 03, 2019 9:26 am
Forum: General Discussion
Topic: In need of some serious help!!!
Replies: 30
Views: 3430

Re: In need of some serious help!!!

So as I’m trying to take a step back and just observe my ego, shall I do the same with physical sensations?

Every sensation I get my mind perceives it as dangerous. Even if I’m just poorly with a sore throat.