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by meetjoeblack
Sun Jun 17, 2012 7:53 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Core purpose?
Replies: 8
Views: 1834

Re: Core purpose?

What do you do ? If you are making lots of money why do you have to finish school ? You can just use the money to become trained as an alternative medical practitioner, or whatever you are wanting. As for independence and all that ... the only real freedom you have is meditation - everything else i...
by meetjoeblack
Sat Jun 16, 2012 1:59 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Core purpose?
Replies: 8
Views: 1834

Re: Core purpose?

What do you want now ? Yes it is good to learn about the path, and you have found the path after a tragedy. Keep going with it, that will be great for your life. You will learn a lot. Give it your time. You will be changed. But still, there is now. What will you do today and tomorrow ? What will yo...
by meetjoeblack
Sat Jun 16, 2012 1:47 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Core purpose?
Replies: 8
Views: 1834

Re: Core purpose?

MJB, my sense is that you are at risk of putting an entrapping 'should' upon yourself. At least that is what I got out of your lead-in post. 'You need to find your purpose and the years are passing by.' Feeling a little pressure are you? That's the creeping should sneaking up on you. My suggestion ...
by meetjoeblack
Fri Jun 15, 2012 3:57 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Core purpose?
Replies: 8
Views: 1834

Re: Core purpose?

My advice : put aside 1 hr a day, everyday, to practice meditation. Then with the rest of your time - stop thinking about what you are going to do - just start doing something. Anything. Whatever is available. Don't judge it. Just do it. Thanks man. I was contemplating between health care and busin...
by meetjoeblack
Sun Jun 10, 2012 7:03 am
Forum: Questions
Topic: Core purpose?
Replies: 8
Views: 1834

Core purpose?

Hey guys, I am looking for a bit of guidance. If you saw any of my oher posts or previous thread, you could imagine there is a lot going on. Basically, I am going in circles. I am reading a lot of stuff, I am looking for motivation, inspiration, and trying to find my core purpose. I am frustrated si...
by meetjoeblack
Wed Apr 11, 2012 1:36 am
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 28368

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

Hey guys, I got a question, and while I know this is not a medical forum, maybe you guys can think of something being in a much higher level of consciousness and less insanity going on. I am trying to get on accutane but, after seeing a dozen doctors, none will help me out with a prescription. If th...
by meetjoeblack
Wed Mar 28, 2012 4:27 am
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 28368

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

Do you want to wait for resolving each one of your problems and getting everything you want in order, and then surrender, or will you surrender now to what is? If you change some structure in your life, change the content, and then surrender, that surrender won't be authentic. But your ego will be ...
by meetjoeblack
Sun Mar 25, 2012 7:47 pm
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 28368

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

Many of the things you are going through now are of the grief process - the journey between your expectation and your reality, on so many levels, not just with the loss of a person. I don't know if I can explain, when you've been through enough things, it's like being in the ocean, sometimes it's c...
by meetjoeblack
Mon Mar 19, 2012 7:44 am
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 28368

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

I am hurting though. Whether you're a guy or not joe, this is the reality. The journey of grief - whatever the grief is for, is something you can learn valuable lessons from. I am the man of the house but, its a huge cross to bare at times. It is also an immense privilege, which I'm sure you are aw...
by meetjoeblack
Sat Mar 17, 2012 2:11 am
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 28368

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

Joe - Go here , spend $10 and read a short book by Scott Kiloby called "Doorway to total Liberation" -- pay special attention to the discussion of anger. Also, he helps people on-line at kiloby.com. He had a rough life also -- like 20 years of active substance addiction. Andy Thanks Mod Andy. I wll...
by meetjoeblack
Sat Mar 17, 2012 2:09 am
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 28368

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

I see you turning the corner joeblack. Look at these 'labels' you've selected to express your feelings, just in this last post - pains me not fair disgusted But overwhelmingly balanced by looking out at a bigger picture - grateful incredible endured overcome inspirational inspiring not easy but ins...
by meetjoeblack
Fri Mar 16, 2012 4:31 am
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 28368

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

I promised to take care of my mom if anything ever happened. So many times in my life, moments of the day, it feels futile, and I want to pull the trigger. I just want it to end. I never asked for life or death. I never wanted any of it. I wont change any of this shit no matter what I do or how har...
by meetjoeblack
Thu Mar 15, 2012 12:04 am
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 28368

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

Is it so hard to be yourself? If you already are yourself, how hard could it be? Im not talking about carring your story, all your past, I'm talking about you: who you are, right now... NOT WHAT YOUR MIND TELLS YOU THAT YOU ARE Becouse If you want to be what your mind tells you that you are, you wi...
by meetjoeblack
Thu Mar 15, 2012 12:00 am
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 28368

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

I started to listen to the stillness inside and love myself even more. I listen to the peace inside but, I still feel I am unable to show my best self cause of my appearance. Just keep turning attention back to the stillness "inside". Eventually your Awareness will stop identifying with those "host...
by meetjoeblack
Wed Mar 14, 2012 11:55 pm
Forum: Introductions
Topic: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!
Replies: 78
Views: 28368

Re: I've battled my pain body for a decade, I need help!

meetjoeblack, Nobody knows how bad you must feel and by the sound of it you do feel lost. Maybe you could try an anti-depressant type medicine to take the edge off those feelings? I have seen them work miracles in the right circumstances :-) I appreciate the advice and support guys. http://29.media...