Just saw Key's post, so Key, I'll just respond here instead combined with Di's post and make this the most obnoxiously long post ever.
Di, I know your story pretty well with your disease and not all diseases stem from the same cause like mine. I love hearing your stuff. Let me flat out say that no, not everyone needs to do what I talk about at all haha. Thanks for always sharing your stuff so vulnerably. Even if you disagree with some of my posts, it's all good. I love you too
I really love Webwanderer's posts on this forum (if it hasn't been evident already) as I consider him a friend and he's really inspired me a lot and I resonate a lot with his posts about alignment and how our feelings are guides for that. Not to mention he's completely opened my eyes to the world of NDE's. However, some of us, myself included, need to go deeper at first, and that's just what I've done of late and still doing and needed to do, by bringing a lot of shit from my past to be consciously seen,expressed and released. It's been incredibly painful, but incredibly healing beyond words. I'm working with a bio-energetic therapist which has so much helped me to release emotions by learning how to express myself, which was so hard for me for so many years due to suppressed shame I carried around.
I have chronic fatigue syndrome, crohns disease (which I mostly healed through diet and nutrition) and a plethora of other symptoms which manifested first in 2008, granted I'm a lot better now. Technically 2007 actually. And the cause of my illness I finally pinpointed to emotional suppression throughout my life, (anger and shame). I know this because I've finally reached a path of feeling better once I started finally addressing the emotional component.
Believe it or not, I never had a rough childhood. However, what I did have was major shyness and suppression of emotions because of certain situations which I perceived as a young child as traumatic such as being neglected and it's spiraled downhill for many years and manifested into possessive relationships with girls, anger issues, jealousy etc until very recently where I've REALLY started healing.
I like the word integration instead of healing.
I've used my body for this. The body has been such an incredible vehicle and vessel for integration, because what I'm learning through energy healing is that the body does not lie as the expression goes. And energy healing is all about expression of energy. Vulnerability is a heck of an ally. We are expressive, creative beings at heart, and that's why emotions have to flow. Emotions are energy. I've started ecstatic dance over the last two months and it's been such a really cool experience right at the edge of my comfort zone and incredibly uncomfortable at the same time haha. If the emotions don't flow, it's energy that gets stuck and manifests as illness. Dancing is flow. Sensuality is flow. Sexuality is flow. Vulnerability is flow.
Awareness might be the ground of all Being, and self realization is a vital stepping stone to experiencing this, but that's just where life begins I feel and maybe I'm missing something, but I feel it doesn't mean there is nothing going on between the lines and many get stuck there sadly which becomes a trap. Oh well. Life is a constant expansion and contraction of infinite Oneness through the exploration and lessons learned through incarnation. It often takes physical illness to get a greater understanding that there IS a person (albeit NOT separate)
and understanding of how energy flows through emotions and through the body to realize that there is far more to integrating/healing and to understand about our human lives, than simply denying the self. There are also past lives which can't be ignored.
I've probably answered most of the questions in this post Key. As far as the identification that you reference, unless you've completely done away with any association with your thoughts and your body, and you NEVER take your thoughts to be you anymore, which ultimately would make you the most enlightened person on the planet
, then I'd say we ALL identify with our thoughts from time to time. THAT is the illusion that I speak of. That's literally all I'm saying. You're calling it an identification crisis and I'd say that's likely you reading into it a bit much. The illusion is when we believe that we are only our thoughts, feelings, emotions. Sure, physical reality is not really as solid as we think. So, I can see that from a certain perspective, we can say that physical life is an illusion. Yet, I don't really feel that has much meaning to me to be honest at this time.
Nanci Danison gives a breakdown of perspectives from Source, to Light Being to human. Basically, everything is more unreal depending on the level of reality it is being viewed from. Physical life is very very real if you ask me. What's NOT real is the identity I create out of my thoughts if I choose to....aka...the ego. But, I never said it was an identity crisis LOL. You said that. I was speaking on behalf of all of us. We ALL have an identity crisis that means. But, even THAT is not a crisis, because it's an intended aspect of the physical experience.
There is no crisis here for anyone. There is nothing inherently wrong with any of it. I can honestly say I'm open to greater understanding the more I allow in my experience. Growing never stops. We are infinite Beings.