There are some things that rocked my boat too ...
Sometimes reading your posts make me laugh out loud, I am not sure why. Maybe it is because the choices I present for these (moral) dilemmas sometimes seem to be at such ridiculous extremes and you highlight this, so it seems funny.
I'm thrilled that you notice this!! And that it tickles you!!
Life is seriously-funny and humorously-serious - the equilibrium along the lines of serious and not would/does include all of those nuances, all feeding in, whether noticed or not in our perspective, our standing-under - our understanding.
Sometimes when we are being our most 'serious' we are the most absurd. It's brilliant that you've noticed that.
Authenticity in responding to 'what is' can be absolutely gob-smackingly hilarious in the interplays between perspectives.
This can by mis-interpretation, by perspective, by projection, by clinging to notions of what is right/wrong, be interpreted as callousness or disregard for the 'seriousness' of a situation, no doubt, and, in totality that's okay too.
Already the 'seed' of the essence of 'is this true, is this kind, is this necessary' was permeating, even if not cognitively processed.
Sloth said: I had an experience of this once a year ago, it was an eternity of suffering I saw, in which I believed everybody to be "damned if they do and damned if they don't". It was as if in those moments - 10 seconds, a minute, I don't know how long it was before I snapped out of it - I had came to that point of eternal return, it was not joy but quite the opposite. Or maybe to you that is what true joy is, but I cannot understand why enlightened people would describe it as joy.
Hand on heart in compassion for that experience Sloth. What if one were to recognise this (the underlined) as a perspective made outside of the actual experience being viewed - the balance of which would be 'not damned if they do, and not damned if they don't' and everything between the two extremes is the 'opportunity' that we are given in experience.
It was like an existential crisis where my brain was just saying to me "Shit happens, there is nothing you can do about it, *shrug* ". A kind of divine irony if you will, a cosmic joke at my expense, a black comedy where God is laughing at the sinners in Hell.
Shit does happen, and sometimes no there is no thing you can do about it. Then what? It's a kind of beyond ethics, beyond morality, there is no answer to 'what ought I do? there is no doing, there is no 'I' in it. Often I find this 'existential crisis' is when we fail to recognise that the situation is not 'about us', it's not within our capacity to respond because basically its not within our journey, we haven't been called to respond, it's not our 'burden' but like superheroes we jump up going what shall we do, what shall we do... (quick maybe if I put my underwear on over my clothes and grow superpowers I can stop this...
) and if we can't respond then we become judge and jury.
What you experienced was one aspect of this. One aspect - one perception.
In this moment, in this situation, it is not 'for us' to do anything, we're witnesses in a sense, and yes sometimes the 'witnessing' and even thinking about, musing about, etc feeds into something in which we can respond at some other time that is of our own journey, that is within the path of our journey, or grows as an awareness of our capacity to respond... it will undoubtedly widen the awareness and perspectives of the sh..... 'it'.
It feeds into our authentic responding, all but intuitively, instinctively with our deeper awareness having kind of 'processed' the equilibrium and the cause-effect.
'God' - the all in which all things are known and experienced does indeed laugh, and cry, without restraint. Omnipotence - unlimited, unrestrained.
In my perceived experience 'hell' is only the choice to separate and judge oneself and others as separate, as right/wrong and choose to hide and cower in the shadows in fear, rather than be the light.
Sometimes we must to do things that do not please us at that time because we know that later, it will be good for us. We will sacrifice short-lived pleasure for long-term health and prosperity, even if it is not now, but later.
ET suggests in consciousness one would 'notice' and accept - 'this is what is required of me in this moment' - it still does encompass awareness, ability and willingness. With acceptance one drops the resistance to, and in progressive expansion it 'may' (if aware, able and willing) expand into enjoyment - how can I pour joy into this, and 'may' also lead to enthusiasm, knowing one is the arrow flying towards a target and putting joy into this moment.
In essence there is no 'long term', there is only honouring this moment, this moment, this moment.
If the consequences cause us to suffer and it was of our own accord that the consequences unravelled, it was the wrong decision.
Perception causes us to suffer.
Consequences just 'are', the (eternally) unfolding now.
There's that impotence/omnipotence 'thingy' again.
swap the underwear on the outside for the cloak and the shadows?