I would appreciate your opinion about the following text I wrote three years ago. I believed what I wrote and lived by those beliefs for a long time. In the end, it didn't work for me that well, and that is how I came to PON.
What was my mistake in your opinion?
If there is anything in which everyone agree on is that we all want to be happy.
How to be happy? At my twenty six years old I believe two things are required: love and ambition.
It is the filial love, the one of friends, family and a girlfriend of many years. I'm referring to that which makes you able to be with people for hours without noticing the time. You feel comfortable, you are you. You forget the masks, worries and stress. You live like in a dream. You don't always feel amazing fun, but a feeling like if you were sleeping, dreaming. Time passes flying and you are satisfied, quiet, happy, sharing your life. You are watching a soccer game with your friends and eating pizza, discussing the stupid things that happen to you in life, or you are watching a movie with your girlfriend and you lay staring into her eyes for ten minutes, hugging in your bed. Or you are having dinner with your parents and brothers and telling them what you watched on the TV or experienced that day. All that has to be part of happines.
It is what makes you wake up early in the morning, dress up and get out to work on something. If you don´t have ambition, you could live forever in the dream of the filial love, but that equals dying. When you live only out of filial love you think there is no reason to exist, that you could die and live in a dream forever: it would be the same without the stressful demands of existence. No, you need ambition. It can be anything: desire wealth, status, power, know the world, have your company, sing, play piano, whatever you want. The key is that you must desire getting something you don't have. It has to be a fire that burns inside. People who feel that fire are the most alive, the ones who sleep the least and feel every moment of the day, every minute that passes, they live it.
But if you are pure ambition and you don't have love, you are a poor man. You live working for something and then you don't have friends to share what you achieved nor your life experience. What is the value of living an intense life if you are going to live it alone? Alone with your thoughts, alone with your perceptions, your life experience and your ideas. You become a brilliant and admired astronomer, but you don´t have no one to hug and watch the stars with. It is not worth it either.
In sum, both things are required. Some people say that to be happy you need to love God and give love, consider everyone as your brothers. Maybe it works for some, but to me it is because they have an intrinsic ambition: to make this world a better place, to be closer to God, or other goals like such, that makes certain famous people to wake up early and "make good". For the rest of the mortals (most) who don´t want to follow that way of life, I think it is good to think in the two components I explained above.