Sexuality, sex in of itself is here to stay. It’s what put us here in the first place and playing with sex has never been any clearer to me then this last week or so since I was introduced to Redtube.com.
It’s a website where free personal visual uploads are amassed from the human race, who’s sexual proclivities are of the kind which I found funny, vulgar, bazaar, entertaining, unique and so much of it that I felt I was being exposed to sex, like a SiFi movie I once seen. In the SiFi this one guy’s eye’s were sort of pinned open where he couldn’t shut them and the screen in front of him forced him to see things in life which perhaps he was not aware of nor possibly not of his choosing.
The visuals, along with the moans, groans, yelling on Redtube was very similar in kind, in as much as in retrospect and in comparison, Redtube’s content made me feel and come away with feeling my life has been literally akin to a devout monk……
When you watch this stuff for a few days, I went through fascination, arousal and a myriad of emotions stirred up by other humans who inhabit this planet and expose a human side and condition that “really heightens” your personal awareness.
It’s kind of funny in a way because it’s like a little kid asking a question and this giant door opens, and like a flood gate it literally pours out at you every answer and demonstration you’ve ever had about sex, humans, their tendencies and funny, it indirectly tells you allot more about yourself.
This last week or so has been a rollercoaster of which when the excitement, adrenalin rush and all that goes with it subsides after reviewing, upon reviewing what was once sort of new to you, is now just another way which tells of others nature and the human condition we live in.
I didn’t run from it, I succumbed to its allurement, I surrendered and I’m glad I did. Had I resisted, the allurement would have intensified. Within, I now sense greater awareness of an existing human condition that literally compels others to put their wares out for the planet to see and to assuage their identity with whom and how they are by showing others what they feel they are……... sheeesh…..strong stuff.
After all that, I’m so glad I ran into ET. I picked up an outlook, which has allowed me such flexibility and freedom of movement. This conditioning allows me, at will, to witness, integrate, and feed an ever-expanding awareness, which walks with me on this planet. This little excursion, this foray, this sampling of human condition, somehow gives me a greater sense of presence.