As far as I know, no one is asking you to prove anything. I asked questions based on your posts to help clairify what you were speaking of. You must know that when you go on a forum and tell other posters that they are not moving from the same place that you are and that they lack courage to jump off the "edge" as you say you've done (or it just happened)there are going to be questions.
Ignorance is blissful. The leading sheep jumped off the cliff; therefore, all that followed will have to jump off it in order to experience the sensation. A black sheep walks around it and tells the leading sheep that it has find a better way for the herd. The leading sheep replies: "You stupid idiot, some need to suffer as I do."
Some others gathered around(some jumped off the cliff, and others followed the black) overheard the conversation wonder "Should I continue to follow or wander on my own?".
The decision making here is a test of courage. Some would consult the leading sheep, and others would consult the black, and yet others will go off on their own. If the leading sheep is a True Wanderer, it will tell the followers to wander on their own or to follow him if they want to. However, he will not guarantee them anything.
The black is by nature unlike the others. It will suffer itself to test all the paths before telling others to follow it. It wishes minimum suffering for others. It tells others ahead of the time. For those who following it too closely, it tells them about True Wandering, and inform them that they will suffer as it does while testing out different paths for others to follow.
Of course, a follower always prefers a black leading sheep; however, over 99.999999999% of sheep is non-black. There are a lot more non-black wanderers than black ones. It takes a lot and lot and lot more for a wanderer to turn pure black like Jesus. Krishna, Zoroaster, Gautama, Huineng are mostly black. Of course, I have stated that there is a very dark sheep alive currently on earth. A true wanderer recognizes/intuits it instantly while in its presence. This presence includes books, videos, pictures and etc.
Become a true wanderer first, before you really know what love and compassion are. Current Dalai Lama does not get it. Seven is right about him, not right about Gandhi because 7 is at the edge of turning into a true wanderer. A true wanderer suffers without complain, nor bother to tell others about his own suffering after turning into a true wanderer. Of course, he does not mind to tell others the stories before he turns into a true wanderer. I do not give much crap to Ramana Maharshi because he was an accidental tourist like Muhammad. Not a true wander. A sheep strayed off the herd and fall off a cliff accidentally and did not make the decision to become a true wanderer after such Grace is granted to it. UG is the same. I am still grateful to UG because his experiences led me to the cliff. UG was my cliff. I wish 7 not not wasting the Grace granted him.
The other side of suffering of a true wanderer is the overflowing of Grace through him. He experiences more Grace than being normal like others.
Gloria in Excelsis Deo!
Have faith and not trust provisional conclusion from personal experiences too much.
God know what you want before you even pray for it, think of it, feel about it, sense it, intuit it.
Everyone wishes to be in Grace all the time, but do you know how much Grace your system can take? Seven intuitively knows this already.
Seven, seven, seven, you must turn into a three through your voluntary submission to the Lord before more Grace is granted to you.