Yesterday I had an amazing insight when JedEye posted " you are not a person with awareness, rather you are awareness having the experience of being a person". (not his exact words)
It became so clear what he was saying I actually saw that I am awareness and I saw the layer on top called "the self".
I tried to retrieve that insight today but couldn't. The intelligence that I am would not allow it. It told me that it is old.
I read a thread yesterday on this site about not being able to be in the moment because of pain. The person who wrote this thread believed he had to not focus on the pain but rather on present moment awareness.Nisargadatta: "The greatest guru is your inner self. Truly he is the supreme teacher. He alone can take you to your goal and he alone meets you at the end of the road. Confide in him and you need no outer guru."
He doesn't realize that he is awareness, so why would he need to focus on himself?
Because he believes the story of "becoming", of ET's pointers that you should focus on present moment awareness. But he doesn't realize that these pointers are only useful up to the point where you know yourself as awareness. After that, why would you NEED to do anything???
Also the physical body itself is a manifestation that gives credence to the "story". Without the physical body, the "story" would not hold up. (as a separate self)
But what is the physical body?
Is it really what it seems to be?
And when you have pain, is it really pain?
Isn't pain just a "meaning" attached to a ripple on the surface of being.
What gives meaning to this existence?
Isn't it the story?
Does present moment awareness have any meaning attached to it?
Does the "isness" of the present moment have any meaning attached to it?
Does the "amness" that I am have any meaning attached to it?