Thanks for keeping us all updated, it's always very uplifting to hear your experience.
I know you are.I'm giving my direct experience so that I'm being as authentic as possible
You can give up. Relax. Give up trying to recognize. Give up the idea of recognition, of seeing the Self. Relax now. Let go of every thought about the Self, every notion. Don't touch those thoughts which urge you on to recognize the Self. These are all just ideas- let go of them. Let them all go by now. Don't let anything touch you.every time theres really no recognition
The self can't be seen, it's just not possible.
Stop trying to see the Self now. Relax your vision. Let your mind go quietly. Give up your efforting and your straining to recognize the Self. These ideas of recognizing the Self, of seeing the Self, of needing to, of wanting to, let these ideas fade off. Let everything pass through you. You are different from everything you experience. You are different from the world outside, and different from the world inside - from your sense perception, from your feelings, your emotions, your thoughts and notions. You are different from all of these. Remain as yourself only now, and relax.
How to remain as oneself? There is no how here, because you cannot not be yourself. There is no practice here, only knowledge, knowledge of what is already true and obvious in your immediate experience. You are different from everything else, you are something different- unperceived, unseen, unrecognized but different. You are also different from the thought, from the injunction, 'remain as yourself only', so let this idea also pass away in your mind. Stay quiet, don't try, don't practice, let go of everything that you can see and know. Let everything pass through you as clouds pass through sky.
All of your experience is constantly changing. Your mind is going silent, at a trickle, or noisy- it is never staying the same. Your experience through the senses is constantly changing- the world is moving all of the time, objects are coming and going, it never stays the same. The witness which you cannot see, which you cannot recognize, always remains the same. Let everything change, let everything pass away, relax, don't cling, don't even cling to the idea of not clinging. Everything is passing away, but you are not passing away. Know this, it is already true, only give up the notion that it is not, give up clinging to things which are constantly passing away. Let them pass away without fuss, let the mind go silent. Let the world go silent by not thinking about it - all of its changes are obvious in silence, the transience of everything is obvious when the mind is perfectly still. In this silence, in this serene mind, everything is changing like the surface of the sea. Everything except you. In this silent mind, the intransient, the permanent, is always there, knowledge is already there. In this silence, in this quietude, both the impermanent and the permanent are already known.
You do not need to think about realizing this. You do not need to try and recognize this, neither practice nor effort. All of these are ideas, mentations, let the mind settle in its essential, quiet nature. Free yourself from the need, from the desire, to become free. Let go of the idea of liberation, of self-realization. Let the mind be peaceful. Let all the world pass in front of you, let it change away, don't touch it- be free and remain quiet, silent, and composed.
This trying, this trying to discriminate the witness, this trying too is seen- this trying too is impermanent. Let go of it, let it go. Every time an experience or emotion or a thought comes up, it is seen. Every time you try to discriminate the Self, it is seen. Let go of the seen, it passes away constantly, it is never the same. Let go of trying, this is just a concept, an idea, a packet of energy, of attention and intention that surges and dissipates within your awareness.Every time an experience or emotion or thought or whatever comes up it is seen. Every time it is seen I try to discriminate notice the witness of it.
This is very good.Asking questions doesn't seem necessary
Let go of this idea, let is pass into silence- it doesn't belong to you.Maybe I still think I'm the body??
Steps are endless. You already exist now, there are no steps towards your being, there is only the removal of the false, of what is not you. Everything you experience is not you. Everything you see and know is not you. Let go of what is not you, don't worry about it, don't bother with it. Don't worry about Mooji's question.I remember Mooji saying "Even the 'I am' is observed - by what is it observed?" So it feels like there is another step to the self.
Don't bother with the idea of doing something else, and don't bother with the idea of giving up doing something else. Stay quiet, don't bother, let your mind be quiet, let it be and become quiet. Don't move out, don't venture or purchase any idea- none of them are you, and none of them can bring you closer to yourself than you already truly are. Let all thoughts pass through you like the wind, stay motionless like a rock, stay in your self, in your center, in your own existence. Drop 'How?' and 'When?', don't associate with them anymore, you simply Are.I don't really know what to do anymore
You realized there was no 'me'. And now there is a me which is socially awkward, humorless, and with poor memory. You who realized there was no 'me' are different from this 'me', and from this new me which is socially awkward etc. This socially awkward me is as real as the 'me' which you realized to be non-existent! Neither are real, don't buy it.the realization that there was actually no 'me' has made me socially awkward, humorless, induced very strange physical changes such as incredibly deep sleep and short + long term memory loss.
It's a chimera, let it go. It's a bundle of thoughts preoccupying your attention. Don't bother with it, let it pass away. Don't worry! Relax!I just reread the above statement, how come even though theres no me theres still a me in resistance?
You can stop. Stop and relax. Relax and rest into yourself, let go of the reigns. Let everything else take care of itself, let everything pass you by. Don't touch any idea which passes through the mind, let them all go about their business, and there is silence, and knowledge. Don't look for anything else, give up looking for anything, give up grasping. Relax. Your existence is already present.
I was reading an old reply from Kiki and the part which really stood out for me was "Instead of looking for the witness as an object, just REST as that knowing." Suddenly I was just overcome with joy! So SIMPLE. I am that, there's no doubt!