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Don't know if you all remember me

Posted: Fri Oct 30, 2015 9:51 pm
by davidm
I came on here over a year ago while I was unknowingly psychotic.

Right now the temporary placeholder diagnosis is psychotic depression, but my doctor acknowledges that it's mostly Depersonalization Disorder blended with intense anxiety. I formerly self-diagnosed myself as a schizophrenic in my innocence, but all the professionals say I don't have that. I am friends with schizophrenics online and connect with them better than I do others.

Well, about Eckhart Tolle... when I read him when I was sick, I was prone to totally warping what I read. At first I thought I had to get rid of all thoughts at all times. Boy did that do damage.

Now when I read him I see that he is saying that mind is essential for practical tasks.

When I was psychotic I was floating in the air spiritually, thought I was a prophet, etc. I'm doing better nowadays. I'm on a lot of meds and working through many therapeutic techniques - CBT, ACT, and DBT, along with Eye Movement therapy.

I am interested in A Religion Of One's Own, an idea I took from Thomas Moore. I want to mind my own business spiritually, and acknowledge core spiritual truth. I am interested in Jesus, Eckhart Tolle, Ramana Maharshi, Thich Nhat Hanh, Richard Rohr, and others. I am interested in early psychosis prevention as a career (I am 18).

Anyways, I hope I made sense here. I am glad that there is a forum like this out there. I hope you guys are all doing well.

Re: Don't know if you all remember me

Posted: Fri Oct 30, 2015 11:41 pm
by kiki
Glad to have you back and are doing better. Also, I'm glad you have a better understanding of thoughts and mind, and what their purpose and value are. Neither are an enemy, so we shouldn't work to get rid of them. In this "awakening" business what we are after is the realization that what we are is not thought/mind based. Once this is seen/realized there develops a sense of acceptance of mind/thoughts that we didn't have before.

Re: Don't know if you all remember me

Posted: Sat Oct 31, 2015 1:19 pm
by Onceler
Glad to see you back, Davidm, and to hear things are going better for you.

Re: Don't know if you all remember me

Posted: Sat Oct 31, 2015 7:12 pm
by ashley72

Anxiety and acute forms of anxiety such as depersonalization disorder are easily treatable with the right treatment. I'm glad your getting help for your illness.

I've suffered with these afflictions and it can be difficult at times. I'm still suffering from some mild OCD myself in certain situations, but being aware of the illness at least helps you treat it. It is also important to be understanding with yourself, as these illness can make oneself feel depressed, & you find strong emotions like shame, secrecy and guilt can be underlying drivers of with these disorders.

Keep good habits like are good night sleep, some regular exercise. Socialise & maintain contact with friends & family.