I am very glad to meet you at this forum
I am from the Netherlands and awakened 17th May this year for the first time. I knew there was something not right in my life and years I tried to find what was missing. Like probably a lot of you I felt very unhappy. Somehow I knew that there must be another way of living life than I used to maintain.
I knew I was throwing myself into the lion's den once I joined a student house with 7 girls sleeping on the same floor. I was very stressed, I made days which contained 5 hours of traveling by public transport 5 days/week in which I also worked 8 hours for my internship(not nearby as you probably will have noticed), I was uncomfortable with talking to girls and also complained a lot once I was at home with my (unconscious) family. I suffered a lot during the first weeks/months in my new (student)room. Constantly thinking about the opinions or thoughts that the girls in my corridor could or would have about me. I was very uncomfortable and my room didn't feel like home at all! I had to take action. I already did take action for years, but nothing ever seemed to work until then. I decided to enroll myself for a course about uncertainty and bought three books whose one of them was 'the power of now'. The power of now awakened me on one day
Life in presence feels so much better then life which is being controlled by the ego! I try not to lose my inner purpose, but I hope that on one day I will have the feeling of presence which will never leave me again. <3