Hi Guy, you could always change your name, to whatever / whoever you want
What we believe about our 'story' is merely our interpretation. Its not necessarily the truth, it is merely our personal perspective of it.
1. Financial lack of success/scraping by. Was made redundant after 7 years at co. now falling back on physically laborious work/not handling well at my age (54). Body aches/pains/up at 4am for 6am start/not 'good' money.
Our judgements are just our interpretation in the moment. eg: there is much satisfaction to be had in physical labour, there is much gratitude to be experienced if we choose gratitude instead of judgment. The essence of gratitude opens our hearts and minds to see, to feel, to know, so much more than our judgements allow.
2. Recurring issue at workplace(s) with disgust/distaste/angry feelings towards un-compassionate/unconscious/pain body laden/bad mannered/insensitive/self-absorbed/poor people skilled superiors.
Give yourself a break! You are not CEO of the universe who can direct or control others, and neither can others control how you respond. The choice is always yours - choose fear and separation, or choose compassion and peace.
Here's the key - we are ALL, each one of us, doing our best with whatever awareness, capacity and willingness that we have. Our awareness, capacity and willingness grow through experience, the more we respond with fear the more our awareness, capacity & willingness grows in fear; the more we respond with compassion -for self and others - the more our awareness, capacity & willingness grows in compassion.
Compassion recognises that each of us are just doing our best with what we have.
When fear arises - and those judgements above are based in fear - breathe out - let the stagnant, polluted judgements flow out with the breath. Nothing is happening but your interpretation of it.
With the clean intake of breath see your self and others and the situation with compassion - if you 'taint' the breath with gossipy thoughts, breathe out consciously again, take in a clean breath - you will know when you are holding in compassion because there will be a peace, a lightness, a loving base in your thoughts, and therefore in your responses. You'll know if you've tainted the breath with judgements because there will be a tightness, a constriction of your perspectives believing that your thoughts are the be all and end all, and your reactions will be polluted by the fears that you are energising or reacting with. (yours and others')
3. Near constant fight with depression (self-talk/utilising ET's & followers philosophies has been extremely helpful). Suicidal thoughts raise and lower depending on levels of depression, anger, hopeless feelings/unconsciousness/P Body.
Use the same exercise above - your emotions depend upon your thoughts, your thoughts are merely interpretations of stimuli organised by your brain into whatever 'story' you are creating / recreating.
Don Miguel Ruiz's The Four Agreements offers excellent perspectives to break these cycles of lying to yourself.
"Life creates reality, and I re-create reality by interpreting it with the word. The virtual reality that I create is my personal creation; it's my art, and it's only "truth" for me."
"Everything I believe about myself is because I learned it. Every judgment is just an opinion, a point of view, and that point of view wasn't there when I was born."
"Every word in my mind is just a symbol, and symbols are not real. They're my creation; they're my art. I am the one who gives meaning and power to every word.
Rather than struggle
- what 'word' would you like to give meaning and power to?
The choice is entirely yours