I’ve had about ten years of trouble. Don’t know how to describe it any other way. I had life all figured out until I started noticing my pain and it got to the point of not being able to function – at least not at any level I had been comfortable functioning in the past. You know the story – lost everything and everyone, started over, blah, blah, blah. I’ve just been so closed up within myself for so long that I thought I would reach out and share, just for the fun of it.
There are no clean edges to spirituality, like I thought there were. No beginning and ending. Just a whole bunch of emotions, wrapped up in a body, hosted by a spirit; that can’t remember where it came from, while the whole conglomeration tries desperately to survive.
So I haven’t arrived at the conclusion I thought I would reach; some finality that says “I’m done”. But I am trying to just live. Nothing grand, no big statement of who I am, nothing to prove, just living, and I guess that’s okay.
Quite a few years ago – off and on – I got on this forum for answers… well not really; I got on this forum for validation as to my spiritual prowess. I thought I was really beginning to understand things and had something to say – thought I could help others. “Physician heal thyself” is a quote that has rang in my ears for many years. I appreciate those conversations on this forum. (Even though I really didn’t want to hear phrases like, “there’s no good or bad”, “there is only NOW”, etc.) But we hear what we need to hear and see what we need to see in every single moment.
I’m hoping to come on this site every once in a while – to hear other stories or to share – and hopefully make it a pleasant experience. No agenda, just for the “fun of it”. Thanks!
To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.