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More of a "reintroduction"

PostPosted: Mon Mar 21, 2016 7:34 pm
by letitgo
I’ve had about ten years of trouble. Don’t know how to describe it any other way. I had life all figured out until I started noticing my pain and it got to the point of not being able to function – at least not at any level I had been comfortable functioning in the past. You know the story – lost everything and everyone, started over, blah, blah, blah. I’ve just been so closed up within myself for so long that I thought I would reach out and share, just for the fun of it.

There are no clean edges to spirituality, like I thought there were. No beginning and ending. Just a whole bunch of emotions, wrapped up in a body, hosted by a spirit; that can’t remember where it came from, while the whole conglomeration tries desperately to survive.

So I haven’t arrived at the conclusion I thought I would reach; some finality that says “I’m done”. But I am trying to just live. Nothing grand, no big statement of who I am, nothing to prove, just living, and I guess that’s okay.

Quite a few years ago – off and on – I got on this forum for answers… well not really; I got on this forum for validation as to my spiritual prowess. I thought I was really beginning to understand things and had something to say – thought I could help others. “Physician heal thyself” is a quote that has rang in my ears for many years. I appreciate those conversations on this forum. (Even though I really didn’t want to hear phrases like, “there’s no good or bad”, “there is only NOW”, etc.) But we hear what we need to hear and see what we need to see in every single moment.

I’m hoping to come on this site every once in a while – to hear other stories or to share – and hopefully make it a pleasant experience. No agenda, just for the “fun of it”. Thanks!

Re: More of a "reintroduction"

PostPosted: Tue Mar 22, 2016 3:52 am
by smiileyjen101
Hello 'again' letitgo it's lovely to hear from you. Remember the conversation here... viewtopic.php?f=5&t=10885&p=91725#p91725

I’m hoping to come on this site every once in a while – to hear other stories or to share – and hopefully make it a pleasant experience. No agenda, just for the “fun of it”. Thanks!

What a lovely advancement - aware of awareness

So I haven’t arrived at the conclusion I thought I would reach; some finality that says “I’m done”. But I am trying to just live. Nothing grand, no big statement of who I am, nothing to prove, just living, and I guess that’s okay.

It's funny isn't it... with the acceptance of the notion that there is no right or wrong :wink: it is (all) just okay. The undertone of I guess that's okay is even pulling back on the conditioning that it even need be 'okay' it might not be 'okay' in this moment, and that - ultimately is okay too. :lol:

Eventually it just is what it is, in this moment blah blah blah :wink:

Re: More of a "reintroduction"

PostPosted: Tue Mar 22, 2016 8:49 pm
by letitgo
Hello Smiileyjen,

Thanks for linking me to that old post. It makes me remember the pain and puts things in a better perspective for now. One observation about that conversation though; my pain was not gone. Pain still comes and goes at will. Maybe - hopefully - it's becoming more of a noticing as it flows through and on out the other side. Nothing to "do" with the pain - no fighting or resisting. Sometimes I can pull it off and sometimes I can't!

Norm

Re: More of a "reintroduction"

PostPosted: Wed Mar 23, 2016 8:59 pm
by Onceler
Good to see you here again, Norm. I always liked your posts and look forward to many more.