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Salutations and kindness...

Postby NuanceOfSuchness » Thu Jan 04, 2018 11:05 pm

I'm Mark. I live in a small village in the United Kingdom. I grew up in a large city called Manchester and have moved around a bit. I came to this forum trying to understand a recent temporary awakening I had several weeks ago which seems to have crumbled my internal construct of reality. I've had multiple smaller episodes of awakening since.

I been enjoying silence since and a deep sense of inner joy but feel very disconnected from humankind at large.
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Re: Salutations and kindness...

Postby kiki » Fri Jan 05, 2018 12:53 am

Welcome to the forum, NuanceOfSuchness. It would be helpful if you provided some additional detail.

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Re: Salutations and kindness...

Postby turiya » Fri Jan 05, 2018 2:23 am

Hi, Mark

Thanks for sharing. :)

How did this temporary awakening come about for you? (Where were you at the time? What were you doing? What did you think, feel, and experience when it happened?)

Did you just start feeling disconnected from people after the awakening?... Or is this a feeling you've always had?

(Sorry about all the questions... Hope it doesn't feel like some sort of Inquisition. lol)
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Re: Salutations and kindness...

Postby NuanceOfSuchness » Fri Jan 05, 2018 11:08 am

Hello Kiki and turiya.

Turiya, we had a very brief introduction on a different post in which I spoke about my feeling lost.

The temporary awakening was devoid of any kind of grand entrance. I was out with my 7 year old who was playing. It seemed to happen whilst I was looking at the foliage in the park. It begin to have depth and I found it very enticing. The plantation took on a whole new aliveness. This was when I sensed an undertone that something had shifted in my consciousness. My thoughts no longer existed. Instead, they were replaced by a deep intuitive 'knowing' about the things I observed in my environment. Nothing seemed to matter because everything had a relationship through a very odd unification. When I looked at people a knowing arose in me of their discontentment but at the very same time I could recognise their immense potential. From the fusion of those two seeming poles grew a deep and warm compassion for human beings. Quite a beautiful way to view people!

This continued for hours so you can imagine the frequency and degree of intuitive insight I received. I came home 4 hours later with it but I cannot determine if it continued at home as I just sat in complete silence which, in itself, was pleasurable.

The next day my thinking mind had returned. It created great suffering. I remember feeling like I was going crazy. I felt very holy and sacred but I knew it was an inauthentic way of being so I meditated a lot during that particular week which seemed to help bring me back to reality; not the reality I had previously known though but strangely dystopian - which harbours some degree of truth, a large dose of disconnection and a lost feeling.

Since then my inner mental construct of reality has continued to erode. I've simplified my relationship to material objects. My relationship with people has more warmth. When I see or speak with people I sometimes see past their physical form and into something within them that I can't define. I've been entering into episodes of darkness but not depression. I've been having lots of smaller awakenings since. I recall one moment where I was walking through the shopping centre and i heard part of a conversation, the content of which seemed meaningless and trivial but it thrust me into an awakened state for a few minutes.
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Re: Salutations and kindness...

Postby turiya » Sun Jan 07, 2018 6:22 am

NuanceOfSuchness wrote:Nothing seemed to matter because everything had a relationship through a very odd unification. When I looked at people a knowing arose in me of their discontentment but at the very same time I could recognise their immense potential. From the fusion of those two seeming poles grew a deep and warm compassion for human beings. Quite a beautiful way to view people!


NuanceOfSuchness wrote: My relationship with people has more warmth. When I see or speak with people I sometimes see past their physical form and into something within them that I can't define.


Very beautiful! :D
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