
(here is the familar bit for many of you) When i was 19 i was given 2 weeks to live because of a brain tumor, (about the size of a tennis ball, yep that hurt), but of course i have beaten that totally now, this was my awakening.
I had always considered (or maybe known is a better word) that all on this earth is equal and indeed one. and therefore had total compassion and empathy for all of life, (i am the take the spider and fly outside kinda guy), I have for many years believed that human consciousness was a 'disease' that would probably be responsible for the destruction of mankind and a lot more. I used to say these sorts of things to people, as well as many of the things that E.T speaks of in t.p.o.n. not always as well articulated of course, but the message was the same in most cases.
For this reason, most people that i spoke to about these issues, (i never preached these ideas, I hope) , thought I was quite mad, and at times so did I, but to me it just 'was how i saw it'. I had always been the willing helper and the 'go to guy' when people had problems etc.
I was introduced to t.p.o.n by a marriage counciler, who after hearing the way i spoke and the things that i had managed to help my (now x) wife achieve, and my general outlook on life, said "there is a book i am reading which i think you should read" and she told me the title. which of course i promptly forgot, then recently when i took a friend of mine to a major city hospital, i had a little time to kill so i went into a bookstore, and here sitting on a shelf, by itself, was this glowing green book, it just radiated at me , so i read the title, 'the power of now' , oh i thought thats that book that the counciler had mentioned, so i went to pick it up off the shelf, and hello, it was not by itself at all, in fact it was almost as if it was hiding and waiting for me to adopt it, it was the first of many powerful moments since. It has been the most profound experience of my life, it ties everything together, it makes too much sense now, reading the question answer format for me was i guess different to most other people, because i think that 90 % of what E.T speaks of . I had been living without knowing it . my physcologist / counciler now is asking me to explain aspects of the book to her because she can see that i am living it. now i have never meditated, or really done any of the suggested things to attain 'being' or 'enlightenment' if thats what this is, so the concept of now doing these things is pretty scary for me as to where it leads, because if it has a compounding effect, of growth, who knows whats in store for me ? all i do know is that it is a journey which I must complete.
I would love to hear from anyone who has had a similar experience to this, or indeed all others as well, so i will spend a lot of time on this site i feel from now on, I hope you find yourselves at peace
and may your god bless.
