one of my biggest questions still is, is this realising you are perfect, has it included that you can manifest, or is it without this knowledgge, its something i cant understand yet...
I don't think there is any hard and fast rule to this. Being "perfection itself" doesn't necessarily mean that you, while in form, will easily manifest whatever you put attention on. It could happen, and then again it may not. But to the awakened one it wouldn't really matter one way or the other. I feel, however, that it would be more easily accomplished when awake. To the one who is awake the drive
to manifest is largely absent because there is no perceived need to be met - whatever is is fine just as it is.
like you are potential for 100 percent, or is it being without potential that makes you happy.... this is very difficult for me... is the nothing dynamic and creative or is it nothing
Source is potential for anything
, and therefore is inherently creative and dynamic. How could it not be? Literally everything you see, imagine, or could imagine arises out of source. Your essence is not separate from source, therefore you carry with you the potential to do amazing things. But "happiness" on the level of form, as human, comes from realizing that you don't have
to do anything at all. Being awake to your true nature puts you into contact with unconditional happiness.
Do you see now? By being unaware of your true essence the drive to find happiness carries with it the seed of sorrow and suffering when conditional happiness inevitably leaves you feeling that something is lacking again, even after manifesting something. But by being aware of your true nature you have discovered the inherent unconditional happiness that exists only there. Nothing in form can be added to make you complete. Oh sure, being good at manifesting can make you more comfortable in many ways but those things won't bring unconditional peace and happiness. They will satisfy you on one level until something else is deemed to be important enough to manifest. And then the cycle will continue to repeat itself until, hopefully, you awaken to your true nature and discover that you are already complete and whole. Then you can manifest or not and still be happy.
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