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Clouded wrote:Of what use are parties when you don't find them enjoyable?
And so were they but I could tell it was all for show, these people wouldn't even hug me and tell me how glad they are that I came if they saw at school. I also felt as a +1 when I went on night outings. I feel that when I'm with a larger group of people, not a lot of personal, more meaningful information is exchanged between us.
Clouded wrote: There was a time in my life in which I was also a part of that fakeness so I could fit in with everyone; at first glance, I'd act really happy to see these people (it was almost an exaggeration)
Clouded wrote: Sometimes, I am able to make small talk with the people working there, I'm not entirely comfortable with this but I made progress over the months.
Clouded wrote:I think that I regress to a lower self when I am in the company of other people because I have to divert most of my attention to someone else's thoughts/feelings and most of the time I am not myself or my egoic self, but a copy of their egoic selves. For example, I agree with them (even if I have no opinion) because I want to avoid disagreeing with them and put strain in our relationship.
! So how are you doing in the social department now that you have cut ties with former relationships? Have you met some kindred spirits (do people interested in spirituality exist outside of this forum?) or did you come to the conclusion that spiritual growth is better done alone?
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