Posted: Fri May 22, 2015 3:17 am
I am a bit of a late bloomer. I dated a bit in high school and some more in college. As I got older, I learned a bit more, i did some road trips, and I became more confident and I got to start dating more. I actually learned about Eckhart Tolle and of ego. I just wanted the ability to stop being a beta male, to have the courage, and will to approach women that intimidated me originally. I read a bit of self help and pickup. I would just talk to more people. I heard more and more about this 80-20 rule or theory. And I see it.The mythical '80-20 Rule' Theory of Dating and Relationships says . . . . within a matter of days, weeks, or months, approximately 800 of the 1,000 women are going to be competing with each other for the attention and companionship of roughly 200 of the 1,000 men on that island.
http://www.examiner.com/article/the-80- ... ng-singles
Now, in my late twenties, I am dating more because I put myself out more which is not always easy. I have come to a conclusion. Many women from their youth are running through men like a crash test dummy and now, its time to play house? After all the pretty boys, the alpha males, the sociopaths, and psychos are done with her, she now wants to settle down? Instead of locking down a good man at the peak of fertility, people were going on a field day.
I can link or upload pics of social media pics or text messages of women from the past, women who would not return my calls or texts in my teens wanting to date exclusively.
I can feel my ego; "yeah, okay bud!" I am aggravated by it. I am pissed by it. Its like, "i am done with the hot guys, my friends are married, engaged or having children, my weight is increasing, my market value is going down, I need to have babies... you will do for now."
My ego wants to indulge purely on a selfish level. I am dating a few girls openly but, I am turned off by this trend. I am a little scared as I have come across this community, mgtow (men going their own way) and I feel like I am destined for that. A group of men Growing up, I always thought I would get married, have children, and the white picket fence.
I know in essence, I am shooting myself in the foot and I am definitely no saint. I just want to date for now but, I feel like the state has no place in my relationship with a woman so, I do not need marriage. I have gone most of my life single so, I so not need a relationship to be complete. I would like to pay my life forward by giving my gifts to the world.
I know my ego is worked up with relationships. I am going to meditate on this and let go. I do need a shake up and someone talking some sense in me. I am very cynical about this and I went to bed one night in a very dark place seeing this stuff. It really bugs me.