
I have a strong infatuation toward a Facebook friend, I know I'm just dealing with a mental image I've made for her, but the feelings are so strong, Usually, I can observe and feel some subtle fearful emotions. But this craving I just can't, it easily takes me over. I just can't stop thinking about that all day long, in the meantime I still can't make an absolute decision. The funny thing is, when I'm facing the situation, when I want to convince her about a relationship, I feel like I don't really want that, at least I'm not sure yet. But If I'm living in an illusion for 6 months now, why there's so much emotion, so strong. I mean life should give me a challenge according to my level of consciousness

Another problem is, I can't plan to see her in the current period of time because of war and country situation and our culture traditions

Any advises?