First, it is not easy to "find" someone "free" where I live. And for years I was alone.
Now, when I was not expecting anything, this guy came into my life...and I think Im in love now. I really do not know why I am so involved...maybe because he is not. I want because I do not have, maybe is something like this. But the point is that when I am with him...I feel better than when i am alone.
We are still in contact but only in the weekends. During the week he stopped to talk with me.. when I send him a message he answers it but he never starts a conversation with me.
I feel he is distant and I know he does not loves me. He is still healing himself from an old love, as he told some days ago.
I am trying to accept that he does not love me, but it is difficult because he knows I like him a lot. So every day we spent together, when I come back home I feel sad, because I do not know if I should continue or if would be better to finish this relationship.
But than, I can see this pain as my ego. I feel bad because he does not love me like I want. And now I do not know if he feels sorry for me and maybe this is the reason why he is with me? I really dont know what to do.
Sometimes I think I should let things flowing and see what happens...but I am suffering because I am expecting his love some day. Despite knowing that it may never happen...