
I have a question that I believe is a very important one on my road to awakening...
How do I free myself from societal expectations of relationships that I've grown so accustomed to? The importance of concepts and titles?
To be more specific..
I was in an amazing relationship with an "enlightened" person in which it did not work out and we lovingly went our separate ways..
Now, we have met again but this time he wants to take it slow, and not rush into giving our "relationship" a "title," rather he just wants to "see what happens." He is not sure what he wants to happen, he says he is just enjoying the ride and whatever is supposed to happen will, all while we both maintain our own lives and are single but still kinda-sorta dating each other (although we have not become "exclusive," meaning we are free to date other people).
Now, my ego is going crazy. It is telling me that I need to know "what we are" in order to be happy. In actuality, I am enjoying him being back in life but I am almost not even able to enjoy it because my ego is going crazy, telling me that he is just using me (which he would never do), he is going to find someone else, etc.
To be honest, I think this is the best thing for us both because one of the reasons we broke up was because I depended on him completely for my happiness. I think if we were to go back to what we were, my dependency would start all over again. What we are doing now is allowing me spiritual growth because I am forced to just trust the process.
How do I let go and surrender? I know there are answers all over the books, but maybe some of your personal experiences regarding this issue would be nice
