Try sometimes not to think that you have any ego... just try to find out what YOU really want...lilly83 wrote: but i do feel that i should just let go of these egoic desires and just enjoy the moments we have together as they are.
maybe you mispercieve the ego-wantings with your own... maybe they are your own wanting's not the egos'! Hey! Get Up! Awaken! Where is true Lilly???
Where is the FIRE??? Where is the desire??? I think you put on yourself a bucket of cold water when you say that "it is my ego which want's more from this boy"
YOU wan't more from that boy, not ego! It's normal! So go and get it! Be Hot! Take what you wan't from him! Just Do It! I believe in you!
As I would say about you.... you are very nice.... you have potential... but you lack some element of fire... and this spiritual stuff quench you a little bit....
say what you think
is there now more fire in you?
did sparks appeared in your eyes?
and is there a notty smile on your face