Subconscious resistance to awakening

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Subconscious resistance to awakening

Post by Amygdaland » Mon Sep 10, 2018 3:59 am

Hi, this is my first post here. I first discovered ET's teachings and spirituality about 2 years ago and have been working on processing my pain body.

I want to become present and awaken permanently, but at the same time, a part of me doesn't want to. It seems like I'd lose a lot of things such as relationships (I'll become socially isolated), possessions (doesn't really matter that much but worth noting), hobbies and passions (I will stop doing the things that bring me great joy such as drawing my characters and listening to music), personality (I'll become bland), etc.

I understand that the only things that will dissolve are ego attachments, to reveal my true nature... But the image in my head of enlightenment seems to merely comprise of basically doing nothing all day.

Yes, I'll enjoy the fact of being and life itself, without the mental noise, fear of the future, and regret from the past obscuring reality and preventing me from enjoying the present moment. But I still feel considerable attachment to certain forms in my life. I don't want to let go.

I wonder if this is the reason I seem to have great difficulty attaining and maintaining presence.

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Re: Subconscious resistance to awakening

Post by aquarius123esoteric » Mon Sep 10, 2018 5:24 pm

It sounds to me that your Christ nature is in the process of waking up. The main thing at that point of our spiritual development, to my mind, is getting in touch with our inner guidance and listening to what it has to say about the issues that are troubling us.

What could be more beautiful and exhilarating for human souls in earthly life than the expansion of inner vision and consciousness this brings with it? I believe that it only come about through an ever deepening grasp of God’s true nature and our own. It baffles me why so many people to this day want to deny themselves this most wondrous experience. An open mind is the greatest gift our Creator can bestow upon any one of us. Those who are willing to keep theirs open and make an effort to remain in touch with their inner guidance at all times, have no difficulties telling a truth from a lie and partaking of the new spiritual knowledge that is now coming our way.

Ah well, you can but lead a horse to the water. . . Oh yes, when the horse is ready, it will drink and that only too happily. Their inner guidance will soon let them know whether I speak the truth when I say that the one who is writing through me is the Universal Christ and not Jesus. The former is eternal, omniscient and omnipresent. The latter is none of these things and never was or will be.

As far as getting to know our Christ nature is concerned, there is no need for following any kind of belief system. Like any great idea, it’s all very simple. Handing our whole being over to God and the Angels and serving them to the best of our ability is the only thing we have to do is to. Bringing forth the best that is within us and in any given moment endeavouring to be the kindest, most tolerant and loving person we can possibly be to my mind is not difficult, because that is our Christ nature and the only way we can be true to it.

Living this way gradually empowers us to save and redeem not only ourselves, but our whole world. The only equipment required for this pathway is the knowledge of who we truly are and that a high and holy destiny is in store for each one of us. From the point of becoming aware of this, the experiences of our own life are going to teach us to trust the presence of God and the Angels. This is the only reliable way of learning that they truly never leave us and can be utterly relied upon to guide and protect us. They are sure to assist us with carrying out the special mission we have come to fulfil in this lifetime, whilst doing their share of it.

All of life is flowingness
And in this flowing
There is meaning and law.
I trust God’s great plan of life
And my own within it.
Therefore:
I cannot lose what is my own and
I need not seek what is my own,
For what belongs to me will come and
Whatever goes does not belong to me.

Only what I am has power
And everything that’s rightfully mine
Is constantly drawn to me and
Will appear at the right moment.

All the best on this your journey of awakening and discovery.

With love - Aquarius
Knowing this, I give up
All personal struggle and ambition.
I let go and trust the inner guidance
Of my Highest Self and the Universal Forces
To show me the way and
Run my life for me.

Created by Anon.
Edited by Aquarius
So long as this you fail to see:
That death precedes re-birth!
A gloomy guest you’ll always be,
Upon this darkling Earth.

Goethe

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Re: Subconscious resistance to awakening

Post by aquarius123esoteric » Mon Sep 10, 2018 6:48 pm

Spiritually, knowledge is light and not knowing – or to say it less politely: ignorance – is darkness. To me, with every new bit of spiritual knowledge we find along the pathway of our predestined pathway through life be become more enlightened. This kind of enlightenment cannot possible make anyone’s earthly existence less agreeable. It can only become more colourful and interesting, surely. Besides, everybody has gifts and talents that could have taken many lifetimes to develop, but in this one has not yet have discovered. With the awakening of our higher nature they are likely to rise to the surface of our earthly self’s consciousness. By following our natural inclinations, they can then be developed some more and possible be brought to their intended full flowering. Who knows? Without sticking your toes into the water and trying things out, you will never find out whether you still have some of those hidden gifts.

With love - Aquarius
So long as this you fail to see:
That death precedes re-birth!
A gloomy guest you’ll always be,
Upon this darkling Earth.

Goethe

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Re: Subconscious resistance to awakening

Post by aquarius123esoteric » Tue Sep 11, 2018 3:12 pm

I believe that we are in this life to re-learn to trust the Highest forces of life. Hand in hand with God and the Angels we need to walk wherever they may wish to guide us on our way up the spiritual mountain and back home into our true nature. The Angels rejoice and celebrate each time another earthling requests their guidance and reassurance. They have always been providing for every one of our needs and are particularly happy to take care of this one.

The Universal Forces love all of us equally. No-one has ever been or will be forgotten and left out of the evolutionary process. It’s impossible and even the seemingly smallest and least important ones in our midst are of significance. Every small effort anyone makes to reduce their own or someone else’s suffering reduces the burden of the miseries of our whole world. Everybody’s contribution to the healing of humankind is of great value and everything counts, for as one of us heals our whole world does the same. And the more we, through our continued efforts, evolve into ever clearer channels for God’s healing energies, the more they can flow through us to wherever they are required and that on all levels of life.

No-one needs to be helpless when confronted with the suffering that still is in our world, although it often feels that way. At times like that I find it helpful to remind myself that whatever is happening can only do so as a vital part of the God’s great plan of life, otherwise it would be unnecessary. Therefore, the events must be teaching some or even all of us some invaluable lessons. Our prayers and devotions, and when we put the spiritual knowledge we are finding to practical use in all daily encounters, empower us to make a real difference. At the same time we are doing our best to restore the balance of our own spiritual account, that of the group we are presently part of and also our whole world.

Through this work the inner light of the living God within our own heart wakes up from its slumber. From there it begins to radiate into every soul we encounter and we thus fulfil our duty of assisting the re-alignment of our own energies and those of our world with the Highest Forces of life. If that sounds too scary to you, rest assured that we are never alone in any of our endeavours and that truly there is nothing to fear. The way will always be shown by the loving hands that are reaching from the Heavens to the Earth, i.e. from the highest levels of life to us earthlings. For a long time they have been waiting for you and me to grasp them and start working with them. If you are not already doing this, why not have a go now?

One of the most significant steps forward on our thousand mile evolutionary journey is the willingness to help ourselves, but at the same time not be unwilling to seek assistance not only from above but also from those around us. When our inner guidance responds to it positively, it is safe to follow good advice whatever its origin may be. As ever, the best part of any journey is not the getting there, but the interesting people one meets, the many things one learns along the way and the wisdom one finds.

As far as joining groups is concerned, if we join one with people who suffer from the same affliction as we do, in due course we shall be able to share the wisdom we are gaining along the way with them. If they are not yet as spiritually aware and receptive to the higher and highest levels of life as we are, our belief in them may have a beneficial influence on building up their faith and trust in the goodness of the life that God has created for us.

This, however, does not come easily to human beings who, in the course of many lifetimes, time and again experienced the ‘slings and arrows of outrageous fortune’, as Shakespeare described our earthly condition in ‘Hamlet’. Trusting does not seem to come naturally to anyone for that reason, and if you are anything like me, it will take a long time until you have mastered this lesson. I am still working on it.

Trusting implicitly our Highest Self’s guidance is clearly the most important and therefore also the hardest lesson of our earthly existence. All we can do is endure the difficult and traumatic times in our lives as bravely and patiently as we can. This becomes easier when we rest safely in the knowledge that we are being taught a vital lesson and that our suffering pays some of our karmic debts. Besides, that’s the only way of finding out that first it’s possible to survive things and come through; second that our ‘luck’ will turn and things get better in the end; and third that help will always appear somehow when our need is greatest and that at times through the least expected channels.

Whenever someone is in distress, I instinctively reach out and offer a helping hand. When this has become not our second but first reaction, only then are we true to our higher nature. When we follow the instinctive response of our Highest Self rather than the urge of our lower earthly nature to turn away, our progress on the great wheel of fortune that is this life speeds up considerably.

Any small kindness is valuable and counts spiritually. Sometimes nothing can be done except giving a person in distress a friendly smile, some kind words of encouragement and comfort, a shoulder to cry on and/or a hug. When the recipient is lifted and helped above their present situation, even if only in a small way, the law of Karma sees to it that our kindness some day in some form or another returns to us. Hence the saying that bread cast onto the waters of life does return. It means that help will surely come when we require some. It may not happen through the people we once helped. In fact, it hardly ever does, but come it will and that often quite magically and only seemingly out of the blue.

The folks who look the happiest,
Who always seem so bright,
With smiles upon their faces
And feet that seem so light,
Are not necessarily the ones
Who always lived in the Sun.

They just faced
Their inner darkness,
Conquered it and won!

Created by Anon.
Edited by Aquarius

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So long as this you fail to see:
That death precedes re-birth!
A gloomy guest you’ll always be,
Upon this darkling Earth.

Goethe

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www.raysofwisdom.com

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Re: Subconscious resistance to awakening

Post by aquarius123esoteric » Wed Sep 12, 2018 2:34 pm

It may interest you that Saturn represents a symbolism for the aspect of the Divine that spiritualises all areas of our lives that are touched by them. Self-mastery and self-discipline, as well as increased awareness of the spiritual aspects of life are the greatest gift the Saturnian experiences can bestow upon the human soul. Understanding can only come to us through suffering, so whenever we are going through particularly trying times, it’s best to take heart and refuse to think that we have been singled out in some way.

Buckle down to your lessons and as you slowly emerge from the darkness of your spiritual ignorance, you can already start to share your learning with those around you. This is how Saturn, the stern schoolmaster of the zodiac, turns into the rewarder and starts to bring you his gifts. Your inner light has been switched on and the knowledge that whatever may befall you, with the help of God and the Angels you are sure to get through any of life’s dark patches, will be yours to keep in all eternity. From where you are now, you may still find it difficult to believe that such gifts will really come out of your trials. Yet, I do not think it will take all that long until you will begin to look back thankfully for every step along the way.

I believe that our character influences – nay, determines – our destiny. Self-control and learning to master the drives and urges of our lower animal nature are sure to get us where we really want to be and where, by rights, we belong. That is why ever more tools for finding self-knowledge and self-awareness are on offer to us from the Universe; astrology is but one of them. With their help the Universe at all times offers us fresh opportunities for changing the unpleasant character traits and behaviour patterns we have brought with us from previous lifetimes into positive ones.

Wonderful though it is, astrology can certainly not do the work that this requires on anyone’s behalf. But, it can go a long way towards increased self-knowledge, including the recognition of what needs to be changed and what soul lessons our present lifetime wishes to teach us. It can also give us pointers to where our strengths and weaknesses lie. Furthermore, it gives indications where to start digging for the treasures of the now almost forgotten gifts and talents we developed during past lifetimes.

They now rest in our subconscious soul memories and are therefore hidden from our everyday understanding. Knowing where to start our explorations can make all the difference, because that enables us to make an effort to help such abilities to rise to the surface and to start using them again, the way they were used in other lifetimes. We all have gifts of this nature within. To help us fulfil our highest potential they are waiting to be re-possessed by us and further developed.

As we know by now, all the suffering that is in our world – including our own – has purpose and meaning. It is by no means something that an unkind, unjust and unloving God, destiny or fate has thrown upon us. Astrology can help us to come to terms with this notion by showing us that certain things are truly ‘written in the stars’ for us, as reflected in our birthchart. The way our main life lessons show up here, to me is proof enough that our suffering indeed is predestined and that we chose it before we came into this lifetime, to assist our soul growth and personal evolution. This understanding and the intention of attending to our soul needs, so that if we get it right this time, this could be the last lifetime in physicality we shall require, straight away brings a certain amount of peace and healing.

With love - Aquarius

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So long as this you fail to see:
That death precedes re-birth!
A gloomy guest you’ll always be,
Upon this darkling Earth.

Goethe

You can find my writings and download
them free of charge from my website
www.raysofwisdom.com

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