pretend wrote:What makes up the difference between being thought and watching thought.
"Being" thought is an identification. It's so pervasive in consciousness that it's unconscious. Ask an unconscious person who they are and you will get a name, a profession, a gender, a nationality, a political party, a race, and the list goes on. But it's also temporary emotional identifications - I'm happy, I'm sad, I'm bored, I'm afraid, I'm weak, I'm strong, etc. Then there's conceptual identifications - I'm right, I'm wrong, I'm smart, I'm dumb, etc. The common denominator is I am
some identifiable thing. From there life is viewed through the combined sense of those identifications that one has adopted as being a unique and separate me from all the other beings that one encounters or imagines. It's constantly reinforced through encounters with other identified beings who are equally invested in separation perspective. But it's just one way to experience life. Awakened being where one is aware of the nature of identifications is another.
Watching thought is the perspective that has no definable qualities. It's aware being without qualification. Even "awareness" is a defined quality of mind that must be dropped if one is to perceive from the pure state of clarity. In other words (here we go again) be aware of being aware.
How do you stay conscious and why there is falling to unconscious.
One stays conscious through the clear recognition of the basic state of awareness as distinct from identification perspective. For most it comes in a breakthrough moment of recognition. Then it fades as one drifts back into the conditioned mental habits of familiar identifications. It happens, it's okay. But an unforgettable truth has been realized. One begins to seek pointers that help recall this basic state. One then may begin a practice of short moments of clear awareness, consistently repeated, until it becomes the norm. Don't set a time frame. Familiarity as clear presence will grow with experience. Be patient. Be diligent. Allow clarity to be. Rest whenever possible in thought free presence. Do not force mental shut down, just observe the content of the moment as it flows by.
Life does not stop just because we begin to drop long held identifications. What it does is take on a new perspective of aware engagement. Moments of clarity will begin to transform the quality of our engagements at a natural pace. There's nothing to do but recognize the nature of thought from the perspective of clear awareness. A natural compassion arises in clarity. Condemnation of self and others is an indication that identifications are influencing perspective. Just recognize what's happening. It will transform naturally in time.