Thank you so much Rose.Rose and Richard wrote:Hi Danny
I have been reading these various posts and wow some are just wonderful Let me say what I feel is coming through your posts:
You had a goal and it did not come to fruition, that saddened you even depressed you.
Perhaps you feel to get to awareness/presence/enlightenment fast enough you will stop that happening again, so you need to do it quickly.
Danny the greatest feeling there is, is to drop everything especially things you have no control over. By dropping everything, you have in fact surrendered to what is.
Surrender is wonderful, it frees the mind from the chatter box it creates a space or what Eckhart calls a portal, or a quietness.
This portal or space allows what is generally referred to as the real you or the inside you...your spirit.. (this is the bit of you that connects us all together in the universe, or an energy which ever you wish to call it) to come through.
Some even refer to it as allowing your gut feelings to through.
It is in these quiet moments that we usually get answers for our life situations, our purpose or an action may come to us.
To create these spaces or quiet moments you need to practice relaxation and when your body is relaxed you can get to a meditative state, now that meditative state is presence is nowness (Echkart meditates for an hour everyday) and in keeping that practice you can begin to gain a better nowness, peace and joy. Don't push, just allow it all to happen over time. Eckhart has been doing this for soo long that his dept of nowness is great. For most of us it takes time. But in getting there we have a level of awareness of our self .. that's enough, let the rest evolve.
But we have the human side of us and generally speaking that's the part that takes the actions to fulfillment of our goals, yes the chatterbox (ego) comes in and can annoy us but just be aware of this, don't fight it, make a friend of it because it is really trying to protect you so when it chatters and you cop that consider what it is telling you, it is usually creating fear about why not, can't do, not doing that again look what happened the last time I did that and on on it goes so guess what you will be able to recognize your own fears. How helpful is that. Read Eckhart's chapter in "A New Earth" to further understand what ego does.
Now we have our bodies also and that's what carries around our mind (with it's chatterbox) and our spirit.
We are Mind Body and Spirit (soul)
So let's use them all
Through your spirit you can find what your intentions in life are e.g. becoming a doctor a writer etc it may take time to find this and you may need to read books take courses do research to have a realization what you may like to do. You can change it as you go through life, do this with relaxation and meditation, you're on your way
Through your mind you can create goals for your intentions, that mind will organize the actions you need to fulfill your intention.
Through your body you actually physically take the actions.
Intentions and actions can change to what ever you require for yourself in life.
Now I wish to share a secret with you: when you learn to live life in this manner you will begin to see things fall into place like a little bit like magic Danny that piece of information is the essence of spirituality.
You need time to get used to living this way and have patience, persistence courage and above all an unstoppable faith( I'm not talking religious faith here ) that life will give you your wishes. Don't beat yourself up where ever you are in life right now is the perfect place to be. Namaste Rose
Your feeling of what I was saying through my posts was 100% correct. My ambition was greater than my desire to live. All was well when I was slowly getting closer to the goal but one day this stopped. No matter how hard I tried I could not get any closer and that left me in despair.
Now I feel that the only way I can continue reaching this goal while maintaining my sanity is if I discover the presence/awareness/enlightenment necessary in order for me to enjoy the journey.
The things that I don't have control over usually bring me feelings of inferiority. They make me feel like I am incapable of accomplishing my goals because It wasn't meant to be. These are the feelings that are brought to me by my ego recently. I know that it's all a lie but my body can't help but react to those lies in sadness.
I admit that meditation isn't a part of my schedule. At times I feel like going throughout the day is a meditation. I'm always observing and doing my best to stay present. When I catch myself in the past I bring myself back and remind myself that the past doesn't exist. That I am not the story that is replaying in my head.
What I haven't experienced yet is what you refer to as answers for our life situations. I don't really expect them in the first place which I suppose is a good thing. Although I have heard plenty of stories about the greatest ideas or inventions being discovered while resting in a place of no thought.
You say that through mind body and spirit life will fall into place.
How ironic is it that my very goals and intentions are what have brought me more suffering than anything else in my life so far.
Scratch that. I should say that it's been my minds reactions to my goals and intentions that have brought me more suffering.
If I ignore my mind and accept everything then I no longer feel any conflict.
Maybe it is my own inadequacy that I need to accept more than anything.
I'll see where this leads. Thank you I found your post to very insightful Rose.