I think we reexperience who we are over and over until it becomes integrated and a fairly steady state. It is always there when we need it. It is who we are, it is everything over and over. We are fortunate to experience it once. Multiple times is more gravy.
I am playing with the experience of being confident that awareness, or who I am is always there, so there is no seekingstrivingyearningstrainingvexing, simply checking in occasionally and not doing anything really.....not doing. Anything.
"When the fear is gone, the mind becomes much quieter, much less full of things. Thoughts become like a gentle rain rather than a thunderstorm." John Sherman