blueviceroy wrote:I dont think we are suposed to do anything next remember there should be no next if I understand correctly
That's right. "Next" implies time - in presence time ceases to exist.
I am feeling we must meditate and understand who wants to know whats next is it you or something else?
Meditation may be helpful but it isn't essential. Besides, "who" feels we "must" meditate? Recognize the wanting/expecting/ needing is ego driven. Find out if ego is real or not and then see what happens to wants, needs, expectations. Understanding arises out of source, out of your essential nature. Let it be your teacher.
I think that meditation even in momentary stretches is benificial to that end of answering the what next
Meditate if you are drawn to it, but leave expectation out of it. Look for nothing to happen.
I am certain that the eternal within us can give us what we need all the time if we can just keep it upermost in our proccesses
I agree. It is the eternal that draws us out of unconsciousness into the light of what we really are. At some point it cannot be resisted anymore and all that matters is remaining conscious of our true nature because nothing else satisfies the way it does. This doesn't mean that you become a monk or hermit and don't perform action; it just means that you no longer look to form to give satisfaction/ peace/ fulfillment/ meaning.
The casting off of selfish desires is paramount to our understanding sourselves which is why we exist anyway Im certain it is to recognise ourselves like a big freakin game of peekaboo
Peekaboo is fun when you know it's a game. That's what presence does, reveal the play of consciousness. When you don't know it's a game everything is taken very seriously.
Meh what do I know anyway I'm just a noob
Being a "noob" doesn't disqualify you from having great insight and deep experiences of presence. I think you are doing great.
I believe finding the eternal within me was all I ever desired and all the things I sought were just ignorant graspings
This is what the great sages say, too. You are in good company.
And now finding complete conectedness in myself and the rest of the world is what I am striving for.
You are closer than you think