I'd like to get some of those phone numbers, but I get kinda worried when I'm just talking to somebody like that over the internet. I guess it's just something I've always felt and I'm gonna have to get over it, because I don't think I will get any better until I do this.
The woman I personally recommend is Lynda Cole. I saw that she has a web site, so It is OK to mention her publicly, here is the link: http://www.lyndacole.org/Lynda.html
Her phone # is on both the Sessions or Schedule page. I spoke to her 2-3 times on the phone, back in 2001 or 2002. She is very gifted, wise, balanced and compassionate. Her background is in Transpersonal Therapy but she teaches spiritually too. She can work with you on whatever level is appropriate for you. I remember this guided exercise she did over the phone with me. She asked me to locate some emotion or feeling in the body and just sit with it for a while, accepting it. Then she asked something like "Does the feeling have a texture to it?" then she would pause for a while to see if an answer arises before asking again "Does it have a color?" pause... "If the feeling could speak, what would say?"...
So that kind of questioning is very helpful to get in touch with those emotions/feelings. It lets them come out and be acknowledged and accepted. To be whole means to accept all that is, including all the feelings. Our culture often conditions us to avoid certain feelings, particularly the ones we don't like, which leads to repression. But "that which you resist will persist" until it is given space to be. Then paradoxically the energy dissipates and it dissolves on its own. But not until we have completely accepted it, that is the key. As long as our goal it to get rid of it, we are not accepting it.
And like you said about Post Tramatic Stress, that seems to fit me to a tee, but instead of focusing on one event, I focus on several, ones which seem to happen all the time, then they get into the rest of my "events" and it keeps building up and hurting me more. If I find myself in a situation, even just a little thought or action that seems similar to something from my past, it will be brought up again and will hurt me and remind me that it happened and will never leave.
There are lots of ways to describe this, it is really not a big deal, unless we make it a big deal by fighting what is happening, when we resist thoughts or feelings, they take on this energy and life of their own. It almost seems as if it is something separate from us that is coming to "haunt" us, but really it is a part of us that is just coming to be acknowledged, it is trying to get our attention. The more we ignore it, the more forceful it gets, until we finally have to deal with it. Eckhart calls it "Pain Body" someone else might call it a reaction to stress, or "post traumatic stress syndrome" PTSS. Use whatever description or model that helps you understand it. There are conventional therapists that treat PTSS, I think they call it exposure therapy. In other words the person immerses himself in the painful experience until they are no longer afraid of it or are accepting of it. I am guessing that there is probably more to it than that. You could try to locate a conventional therapist that treats PTSS.
I am reminded of a line from the TV show Mash. The doctor Captain Pierce, (Hawkeye), is talking to a soldier that is experiencing PTSS from the horrors of battle, (although I don't think they used that term PTSS during the Korean war). The soldier says to Capt. Pierce that he is having trouble forgetting what happened. Pierce says to him "No one ever forgets, they just learn to live with it". So that is it in a nutshell we just need to learn to live and accept what happens in life, regardless of how it appears. Whenever you start feeling sorry for yourself, try thinking about other people in the world that are in the throes of challenging situations such as warfare, famine, disease or disability. You might begin to laugh at your own situation, and realize that it is your mind that creates problems where there are none really.
I also mentioned Loch Kelly before, I know of a few people that have worked with him on the phone, he is also a friend of Adyashanti's; and I've heard that he is very good. So that is another option. His phone is on the Contact page here: http://www.lochkelly.org/
If money is an issue, ask and they may make special arrangements with you. You might try taking a job after school or on weekends if needed. Physical work might be good for your soul (figuratively speaking). There is an old saying: "Idle hands are Lucifer's workshop." We know now that Lucifer is a mythical creation of the mind. But what this saying points to, is how when we are idle, we have a lot of time to spin our wheels, to think and worry about things. So the devil is the thinking mind that spins out of control. By getting busy, working, being productive the mind does not have time to dream or create problems.
I grew up in a relatively rural area, but there was always work to do. When I was 16, I took work on the weekends picking mushrooms. I also helped contractors from time to time as a laborer, carrying cinder blocks and mixing concrete by hand, that kind of thing. Picking mushrooms was considered menial work at the time, I didn't really care, I was able to save enough money to buy a car. In the summer I was a life guard at a local pool. I remember times picking mushrooms that it could be very relaxing, I could be very much in the Now while doing it; no place to go, nothing else to think about but picking mushrooms. I didn't know what Zen or meditation was at the time, but looking back those were Zen meditative moments. "Chop wood, carry water". Pick mushrooms, put them in a basket. So anyway that's my story, I won't bore you with anymore details.
But what I'm suggesting, because you sound like you are stuck in inactivity, is that you get busy, get to work, that way you will spend less time thinking and fretting over your life. Perhaps you might even benefit from taking up jogging, or some other physical exercise, to burn off that excess teenage energy and find more balance.
Keep us posted on how you're doing.