Pennee101 wrote:I can get into a non-thinking presence but I think I find it boring because I always end up straying into thinking. But I catch myself. When I can get into presence I do not notice the pain. When I have bad stomach pain it is so hard for me to think of anything else though and I don't think I've been able to let it go enough to get into a stillness ever when I have bad stomach pain.
Hi Pennee. Maybe I can help you get a little better clarity on stillness/presence and how to get the most out of them when it comes to pain. To me pain comes in two varieties. That that is telling me there's a problem that needs to be addressed that will likely get worse if I ignore it, and that that is chronic and generally just bothersome. It's best to be cognizant of what you're dealing with.
If it's something that needs medical attention, consider seeing a doctor. If it's chronic then you can likely make your experience better by your approach to life with such pain.
When it comes to stillness, it's unlikely that you can stay there for long with pain clamoring for attention. It's just too distracting. The value in stillness is the alignment and insight that is available there. Presence however, is the gold standard for enjoying life. If you are totally present with your pain, you will likely be having a tough day, especially if you are feeding it with concerns. The alternative is to find things that you enjoy, things that are fun and engaging, and be present with them. Get immersed in them - that's presence.
With your attention and feeling nature focused on fun and enjoyment, play and laughter, peace and appreciation, all within a sense of clear presence, chronic physical pain tends to fade in relevance. What you feel
in terms of what you enjoy is paramount to getting more out of life than one focused on concerning pains. I'm not talking about a permanent vacation. It's the little things. Reading a good book. Knitting a sweater. Tending some flowers. Playing with the children or grandchildren. Just have some fun with whatever your doing and give it your full attention, your presence of being.
I also notice that I can be fine emotionally for a long time but then I can get angry and even when I become aware that it is just my ego talking I end up with the thoughts coming back again and again and when they are angry thoughts the pain seems to coincide.
Yeah, that happens. Don't make too much of it and it won't be too much of an issue. The more you make of these moments, the more intense they can become, and the more often they will happen. But you probably already know that. Just relax and know these setbacks will happen and you'll get through it and back on track of enjoying the many other elements of your life. The more you take this minimizing approach to those flare ups the shorter they will be, and the less often they will arise. It's no big deal unless you make it so. So make it a minor issue and move on to something you prefer.
But then I get so mad! And then I am in pain! I want to stop doing this!
The solution of course is to make the problems that arise ever smaller, and the joys of life ever more attractive. It's a matter of replacement. Life energy flows to the focus of your attention. The point of your presence is where that attention is focused and whatever it is will grow. It doesn't matter whether it's resistance, denial, justification, rationalization or whatever. It's only a matter of attention. You will choose, either by conditioned default, or by your chosen preference. So, what aspects of your life do you want to feed? What aspects do you want to become bigger?