Oh, ok, yes that's right, we don't know what will happen. We can think we've done all the "right" thinking and actions to get what we want, but that doesn't mean we will get the desired result. We aren't actually in charge! We just "think" we are, because it feels that way...Think of all the prior actions that have to occur before you get what you want, all the prior actions have to line up perfectly to get a certain result. So, you take action and accept the results you get. You accept it, for that moment, because you have no other choice, it is what it is.
Yeah. I am learning that gradually. Like, I am accepting minor health complications. I am noticing I have a lot of tension so, I am trying to stretch more and do more relaxation. I am spending time reading. I probably read more in a week then most people do in a life time. I just need to put that into action. I am reading Reality transurfing volumes 1-5. I am done the first 3. I cannot find a copy of the final books. I am trying to put the exercises into practice. When I feel anxiety, I do a breathing technique where I feel energy coursing through my body from the base of spine up into infinite and back but, running on two streams. I refrain from holding onto any of it because I am part of it all anyway. It seems to be working. The book talks about "pendulums" which are basically "pain bodies." Its fascinating because the author is Russian and the content is translated to English but, I am curious how much is lost in translation.
Anyway, no matter what, I let go. A girl gives a number or be go on a date, I let go. I may see her again or I may never. Othertimes, I get caught up in materialism, money, prestige, etc.
dijmart wrote:Sure, sometimes I wished I didn't have a family. See life is a zero sum game, with every upside there's a downside, with every downside there's an upside. If your alone/single you can do whatever you please, however you please, but you seek companionship, etc, but with that gain you lose your freedom. You have a partner to consider, who has opinions/comments on how you chose to live, what you wear, where you go and your choices from day to day. It can get exhausting! On the upside, if you have a family your not alone in this world. You have love and compassion, help in stressful times, ect., but you can't just pick up and leave and do what you want, when you want, how you want. That's why there's the saying, "watch what you wish for", you may not want it once you get it! Lol
Well, sex isn't the only thing in life but, its a significant part of it. Its dangerous just being single and sleeping around. It gives me anxiety sometimes. a girl text me once about her immune system which freaked me out. I do enjoy freedom. While I was experiencing stuff in my old job, I was just happy that this wasn't sustaining a family or I would hate my life. It really is terrible sometimes but, I want to be like a friend. He can drop a job and get a better one tomorrow. He seem to date a lot too. He is pretty successful. I learn a lot from him. I want that sort of resilience especially in situations in the workplace regardless of the job market.
Yeah. I feel that. When I am dating somebody, I kind of wonder if someone else is better match for me or I see something strange going on. A weird text message since everyone is online now a days. A drunk message or someone says something that is a turn off. Maybe rubs me the wrong way or some strange behavior. I told a girl I would call her right back. I called back, she did not pick up. She then got weird even though she was the one pursuing me originally. She was a bit young an awkward so, I just stopped talking with her. I don't like games. She suggested we just hookup but bfs are stupid so, she doesn't want one. I kind of feel used in the situation. She would get mad to if I talked to other girls so, it was not a good situation.