Hi Lucy -
do I have to surrender to? do i surrender to the fact that the computer has called me...
I tend to let the universe "tell" me what to do. So, if the computer calls you, it's either a call to go teach or a call to establish new prioritities in your life where you decide that your writing is more important than earning that money, and you have the vision and knowledge to know that everything is as it should be, and the abundance is there for you. So, that's where you decide - to let fear run your show, or to trust the wisdom of what is.
One thing I have learned is that when you let go of fear (future) the universe presents you with miracles of support for your endeavors. I actually am very scattered, I'm writing a book, teaching art, running peacethings.com, doing a soldier sponsorship program for the holidays and dealing with all the media surrounding it, maintaining 5 websites, doing lots of community service, creating 37 handdrawn and painted eggs for holidays gifts, big deadline, preparing to host the big family party next week... and here I am somehow finding the time to be writing here
Around 20 years ago I was in a dsyfunctional marriage and determined to "stay the course" of my commitment. I was in a good financial situation living in a pretty prison in a very upscale place. When I let fate run my show, I ended up "throwing it all away", leaving the security and wealth, for a mate that truly is my mate. I took a wild gamble, and said to this guy who was like Bob Crachett in A Chtistmas Carol back then, as we struggled financially yet enjoyed life so much - stick with me and we'll always be fine. And we have been, and we work together and love creating together, and he's become very successful and a wonderful supporter of my creative stuff, and together we've manifested a truly good life of love and abundance, and most importantly an emotionally functional family dynamic.
What I'm getting at is this, you need to let go of fear to allow the universe to fulfill you. That's what surrender is all about. I prefer to call it acceptance as surrender has a negative, powerless connotation.
So, you can take the call and go and teach and possibly end up with a publisher because your gut told you to go to open some kind of door, or you can feel the call as a call to stand strong on your determination to let go of fear and write.