In the minutes between posts I've learned a dear, gorgeous lovely empathetic boy siloed and misunderstood under the guise of 'autistic' as having no empathy - when many of his 'abnormal' behaviours - his no sense of personal space of others sometimes, his walking through a shop and suddenly going over to hug someone / a stranger - usually someone who 'needed' a hug - even if they didn't understand his motivation for suddenly giving them one, his outbursts of frustration and anger when noise or energy levels were too high for his capacity ... were actually empathic (energy feeling) overload, not lack of empathy.
I know that the 'lack of empathy' in those labelled autistic 'may' be empathy overload/fatigue in the same way we are starting to understand compassion fatigue in the general population as after effects of multiple major disasters.
The so strong impulses to research where neurologists and neuro theories are up to in realising this flaw in their data and to once again maybe stick my head up and ask them 'what about.... ?'
My feelings of David's energy urging me on to express this the last few days, as he would when sharing my 'calm' states that I would adopt to accommodate him when in close proximity. His love for me, his child-like honesty, misunderstood by so many who had built up fences against him and his like because of the misinformation from the skewed data interpretation.
David passed away two days ago. He suffered 4 seizures and then his kidneys failed and he left his body, they ventilated him. On his wishes he was an organ donor. His Mum's just told me the day she left him in hospital she realised he was staying in this wracked with pain body for her, she told him not to do that on her account, in a sense giving him permission to leave.
And he did.
Six people, including a baby have gained new leases on life from his donation of his organs. All he ever wanted while here was for it to be okay to be him. In his chats with me he loved being with me because I never made him feel like it wasn't okay for him to be him. He was wicked of humour, really witty, if you took no offence (funny, there's that word again). He had an amazing intelligence that was discounted by professionals and a strength of will that made him look like a 'very naughty boy' at times. Some thought him arrogant, but they were wrong, he was vulnerable.
As I mentioned earlier, with the comings and goings through the veil in and out of 'the physical' energies shift and like a pebble dropped in a pond ...
Hugs you snowy, thank you, you make me feel okay to be me. David, it has been my immense pleasure to share some of your journey... but do I really have to explain it to those who don't want to listen?